Troubled Soul (ryden fanfic)

Chapter 7- Secrets

(Brendon's p.o.v)

   As Ryan was holding my hand, I couldn't stop thinking about how I'm going to lose him. I didn't want to tell him the ugly truth, I didn't want to hurt him, well he is going to be hurt either way. If only he knew. I don't want to ruin his mood now. He just started to smile again after almost getting killed by his dad.

    We walked to the abandoned park I found him at when he was bruised up. Now, I know why he has all those bruises, his dad. I wanted to kill his dad so much for making him go threw all this crap. I wish Ryan could just be mine without all of these problems.

  I have to go back to my parents tomorrow, after that everything is gone. Ryan looks at me with a confused look, "What's wrong Bren?" He says as we lay on the wet grass. I shake my head and squeeze my eyes shut,

"Stay with me," I say.

"What?"

"Don't leave me,"

"Of course Bren, I wouldn-"

"I'm moving," I said seriously and turn my head to see Ryan's face. His face is in utter shock. "Where?" He says quietly.

"Away, different schools," I say as I turn on my side towards him. He mirrors my action and puts his hand on my face with a tear in his eye. "No, don't leave me Bren, why?" He cries.

  "My parents are trying to keep me away from you, they don't want me to be a 'fag'. They are seriously religious people and they want me to not be gay." I sob. He pulls me close to him and holds me.

  "It's not their choice!" He yells and gets away from the embrace. He stands up and walks away, "Where are you going!" I shout, I quickly get up and catch up to him,

"I'm going to talk to your parents," He mutters angrily. "No no no no, Ryan!" I grab his arm and turn him around. "It's not fair!" He yells.

  "I know, but it's life." I say sadly. He is beautiful, I can't stop staring at him. I smirk, "What?" Ryan asks.

"Your beautiful," I grin, moving my hand down to his hand. He rolls his eyes and smiles, "Thanks, but no." Ryan says.

  "Shut up your gorgeous." I poke his stomach. He pokes my stomach, "TAG!" He yells and runs away.

I run after him. He turns a corner, but I lose track of him. I looked everywhere, and no sign of him. The park is nothing but a structure, grass and trees. "RY! I give up!" I yell exhausted.

  "Look up," I heard someone above me. He was in a tree, hugging the branch. "Wow, not fair," I cross my arms like a five year old.

"Brendon?" He says. "Yeah?"

"I need help getting down, I'm stuck." He says hugging the tree branch tighter and looking down at me. I laugh like a maniac, "Aw. Poor kitty, I'll help you get down." I tease. He rolls his eyes and smiles.

  I climb up the tree and grab his hand, I began to go down with him in my grasp, but he isn't putting any effort to move. "Ry?" I look at him, and he's just looking at the stars, "Ry? You okay?" I say climbing back up to him.

  "Look at the stars with me." He grins and scoots over on the branch. I sit on the branch with him and put my arm over him. I pulled him closer to me so he wouldn't fall. My weight was on the middle part of the tree that I was leaning on. Everything was perfect right now.

  I looked at Ryan, while his eyes were fixed on the stars. His eyes looked like stars, there shining, and beautiful. I smile and sigh at the perfect boy next to me. He turns his head over to me and looks at me, confused.

  I got my other hand that was on a branch. I got closer to him, and he raised a eyebrow. I put my hand on his waist and I moved inches closer to his face. He looked down at my lips, I think he has a feeling on what I'm about to do.

  I place my lips on his and kissed him softly. He puts his hand on mine, the one that's around his shoulder. "Your amazing," I say into the kiss. He softly bites my bottom lip, I'm guessing as a thank you.

   My tongue enters his mouth and his enters mine as we explore each others mouth. I start to lean on him more. He falls backwards and I quickly catch him. I pull him up to me so he wouldn't fall, "Well that was nice until I almost fell off the tree," Ryan Laughed.

  I chuckled and put my arm around him. I checked my phone for the time, 1:00 am. I sighed and turned to Ryan. "I think it's time we sleep," I said to him, kissing his cheek. He groaned, "But, I want to stay up with you, forever." He responded.

  I smiled kept on kissing his cheek, "What do you want to do then?" I ask. "Let's go on a adventure." He says excitedly. I smirk and help us down the tree.

    I take his hands as we walk out of the park, over the fence, and behind the bushes. I don't even know where were going, but as long as I'm with him, it's okay. Lets get lost.

  "Hey Ryan?" I ask.

"yes"

"Was that song about me? In music class." I turn to look at him. He nods and looks away from me. "Your a really good writer." I confess. He smiles and squeezes my hand.

 "Where are we?" I ask. "The zoo." He smiles as me. I squeal and run to the gate, "Ryan? How do you expect us to get in? It's 2:00 am." I ask, banging on the gate.

  He smirks, "That''s where the fun comes in."

"Anywhere is fun with you." I wink. He laughs and walks around to the back, I follow. "I would come here when I wanted to escape or write." He says as he climbs down into this hole. Unsure, I climb down as well with him.

  My head peeks up to see a bunch of nature, and a lion. "Um, Um, Ryan!" I screech. "Bren!Y Your going to scare him!" He says as he pets the tame lion. "His name is William," He says proudly. I walk over to them slowly.

  "It's okay, He's nice I promise." Ryan say reassuringly. I nod and pet the lions soft hair. I smile as William snuggles me. "He likes you." Ryan's eyes sparkle.

  "Well that's too bad, I like someone else." I say as I pat Williams head and walk over to Ryan. I reach out for his hand and kiss his nose. He smiles. I hope he knows how much he means to me. Yea I was a jerk, but I need him so bad.

  "So how are we going to get out of the cage?" I ask, pointing at the glass walls. "Follow me." He says walking away.

"Your so full of surprises." I giggle.