Troubled Soul (ryden fanfic)

Chapter 4- Pray for love.

(Brendon's p.o.v)

  I walk with Ryan, he was telling me about his old school and how he was bullied. "Your safe now," I pulled him close to me. He awkwardly hugged back, so he totally doesn't feel the same way. I let go and we continue walking to my house. How am I going to face my parents after what I said earlier?

   I guided him to my front porch and open the door. Letting him go first then I follow. "Sweetie! Thank Jesus your home! Wait- who is this?" She looks annoyed. "My friend, Ryan." I say as I pull him up the stairs. "YOUR SLEEPING IN SEPARATE ROOMS!" She yelled before I slammed the door. I rolled my eyes.

"Your mom seems nice," Ryan laughed as he took of his shoes. I rolled my eyes and smiled, "Totally," I laughed. I admire his smile, it makes his face even more perfect. I can't stop staring at every single detail of him, if only I can see what's under those clothes. I chuckled to myself.

  "What's so funny?" Ryan shot up, checking himself. I shook my head, laughing, "Nothing, nothing"

"Okay, well I'm really tired from walking all day. Can you show me the bedroom please sir," He said like a gentlemen. "Right this way sir," I said as I motioned him out of the room. We walked down my hall to green door and I swung it open. "Well this is where you'll sleep," I faked a smile. "Thanks," He said quietly and sat on the bed. Looking up and me, why is he still looking. Wait, "Oops, sorry!" I got and closed the door. I hit my hand against my head and muttered, "Stupid"

   I went back to my bedroom and stripped into my boxers. I plopped onto my bed and realized how cold it was. Shit, I'm to cold to get out from the covers and put on clothes. So this is going to be a long, cold, shivering night.

  I stared at my ceiling thinking about Ryan. How does someone so perfect? Get bullied? I wanted to protect him with my life and kiss his lips, fully. I want him to be mine. I shivered again, this cold is going to kill me.

  Last night was the most sleep I've gotten in awhile. When Ryan and I were cuddling, everything felt perfect. A tear escaped my eye, then turned into sobs. Why doesn't he like me? Is it because I'm weird and creepy, or have a girlfriend. 

  I heard the door open, and I hid my face under the covers. "Hey Bren? You still up?" I made a mmmmmm sound. "Can I sleep with you, it's fucking cold." He shivers. My eyes light up, "Sure Ryro, but I'm naked so I warn you."

  "Thanks Brenny," I blush a little bit. I kept my back towards him when he got in the bed. I felt the cold breeze when he lifted the covers. I shivered and pulled my bare knees into my body.

  I turn to look at him and he's already staring at me, "Hey" I said softly, my voice cracked. "Why are crying?" He asked as he got closer to me, wiping the tears that stained my cheeks.

  Shit I forgot I was sobbing about him a couple minutes ago, "Something." I mumbled. "It's okay if you don't want to tell me it's okay, but I'm here if you do." He turned to his side. I smiled at him.

  I look over at his hands, they are shaking. I grab it without thinking and it causes him to turn to me. "Your still cold." I say. He nods. I was looking at his hand then something caught my eye. A little white mark near the palm of his sleeve.

  What the hell. I pull down his sleeve and he jerks away quick. I look at him with tears in my eyes. He pulls down his sleeve and looks at me, afraid. I ignore the questions and reach out to him. I pulled his body closer to me. Our faces were inches apart from each other and I kissed his nose.

  He smiled. Wait, he liked it? HE LIKED IT! I cheered in my mind and smiled. Our bodies were skin to skin with each other and we stopped shivering. Body heat, is the best heat period.

    His breathing was normal again and so was mine. I kept him in my arms once he fell asleep, but I couldn't fall asleep. Something was bugging me. I felt like there was something inside me that needed to escape.

  I did the unthinkable, "I know you can't hear me, but I love you Ryan." I said. A big feeling inside took over, It made me feel hapy and my heart grow bigger. I think it was love. I snuggled Ryan closer, if I even could. Then I fell asleep.

(SORRY ITS SO SHORT! ILL MAKE LONGER CHAPTERS SOON)