Lips

Chapter 1 .

A broken girl

Your assignment is completed Mac we are extremely sorry for your loss but your done ,you leave at o h 8 hundred tomorrow morning ,and we did speak to doc Mac and your not clear for active duty not mentally and not physically

Commander Sergeant Major Kielbasa's voice booms in the small heated office frustration clear and unbinding ( he doesn't want to do this is clearly in his actions I think to myself)

Why don't you take a well deserved break go to Miami or Hawaii recoup relax and start your life Mac the army's all you know since you were 16 years old it's time to go out fall in love live your life Darling , you served your country well.

Sergeant Major Borne Pipe's in like my world isn't crashing around my feet .

Your dismissed
And take Care

Standing and saluting my superiors like I'm not a beaten down dog like I haven't failed ,like I haven't disappointed my whole team ,like I don't hate the fact that I wasn't strong enough good enough , turning and exiting the main building to the barracks .

A ghost of the person I once was what the hell am I going to do now ,self loathing oozing out of every cell and fiber in my body

The pain in my arm pulsing a dull pain reminding me that I have to take my pills soon after dinner probably,as the late evening rays beaming with mirth the base quiet like it's holding its breath in anticipationsion

Crap ..... Mac! Mmmaacc babe wait up! I suddenly hear through the fog in my head

Turning around to face the person calling recognizing the voice and face as Antony aka Maddox my teammate and fellow bulldog

Hey Mac how did it go ,he breathlessly asked fear of my answer making his words harsh

Taking a shuddering breath fighting back the tears threatening to spill in the middle of camp ,in a quivering voice I reply ,I have bean booted Maddox I'm leaving tomorrow morning at 8 am sharp

Seeing the big man that is Maddox suddenly grinding his teeth anger pouring of him in waves taking my answer hard

Fuck Mac he says while taking me into a tight hug the tears i have been holding spilling like a river unbidden from my eyes

I don't know what to do now mad I have nowhere to go you know that the army was my home my team my family now I have got nothing I should of died on that mountain mad I should of died!

Noo! Mac he says in a thundering voice shaking me by my shoulders don't you ever say that again you hear me venom dripping from his lips come with me to my home town I have a house their you can stay with me till you recoup and figure out what to do I'll even cook! It will be good for you , sun ,sea ,surf just think about it

Do we have a deal?

I have known Antony since boot camp when we were scared 16 year olds his bright green eyes the first thing you notice then his smile he has a inner light that shines through making a person feel safe .
In the army you don't stay innocent for long you grow up fast and hard but he kept his playful charming personality except when provoked than he is scarier than a hell hound after blood nor do I ever want to be at the reserving end of that anger there will be nothing left for identification , he's my brother in arms, family

We have a deal mad but only if you cook! A small smile pushing past the sadness

Great! A full blown smile on his face eyes shining brightly out of happiness with my answer

Let's get some food in ya Mac it looks like a stiff wind can blow you away , and we can't have that now can we