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I never realised how important it is to feel. 

Years ago I used to wish that I wouldn’t feel anything. 

That all my problems could be washed away, that I would be cool, calm, nothing could get to me. 

Now I wish I could feel something. 

Feel happy, feel sad, feel love, feel pain. 

Feel something. 

My therapist asked me to describe my feelings in a colour. 

She gave me a wheel of colours all with a label on the side. 

Yellow for happy. 

Blue for sad. 

Red for angry. 

Pink for in love. 

I told her I felt black. 

She didn’t accept the answer because that wasn’t on the chart. 

But thats what I was. 

Black was the shade of an empty hole that was never filled. 

An endless night sky that seemed to flow forever, never ending. 

Black was everything, but somehow, nothing. 

I felt empty.

I felt it was never-ending. 

I felt nothing. 

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