bully🖤// Rye Beaumont

🐝Chapter 2💓

Ryes POV
I feel so bad watching her in pain, she doesn't know how I really feel about her and it's completely different to what I show. I don't want to hurt her but if I don't all the others will hurt me.

She puts her head on the desk and I can tell she's trying not to cry.
I just wanna comfort her, hug her, tell her I'm so sorry and that everything will be okay, just be there for her.
But I feel like it's too late for that. And if I'm honest I will never forgive myself for what I'm doing to her.
I rest my forehead in the palm of my hands and close my eyes.

~flash back~
4 year old mekayla and I run through her garden with a bowl of water balloons hoping to catch her brother with it. I accidentally throw one at her and she falls to the floor crying.
"I'm so sowwy mekky I didn't mean to hurt you" I say running to her to help her up
"It's okay rye" she smiles whilst wiping away a tear
"Are you sure because I would NEVER hurt you on purpose" I say rubbing her back.
"Yes I'm sure" she smiles
We both run back to the bowl of water balloons and carry on throwing them

~end of flashback~

Mekayla's POV
I hear sniffing next to me and I look up and rye has his forehead in his hands  and he's... CRYING!? Why is he crying?
I wonder what he's crying about? Is it me? It can't be can it? He hates me, should I comfort him? I don't know what I should do.
He very quickly stands up not showing anyone his face and walks over the to teacher. I couldn't work out what they was talking about but in a matter of seconds he walks out and I didn't see him to the rest of the lesson.
I'm so confused....

Ryes POV

i get up from my seat and head to the front of the classroom. i try not to show my face to anyone as i still have tears streaming down it, i then ask the teacher if i can be excused to go to the toilets. i run out of my classroom door and sprint to the toilets.

i lean against the sink and just let all my tears out. i look myself in the mirror, what the actual fuck am i doing, i feel like i dont know myself anymore, im such an idiot. after a while i stop crying but i dont feel ready to go back to class so i wait until the end of lesson to go back and explain to the teacher that i was crying and i didnt want anyone to know so i avoided going but , which he understood.

Mekayla's pov
1hour passed
It was time to go home and I met my friend at the gate to walk home with me as we live not that far away from eachother, we walked and talked until she had to leave, I carried on walking until i saw a tall thin shadow walking around a corner, and then I see him, fuck sake, carry on walking mekayla, act like he's not there, I think to myself .
I walk faster but he calls my name, I look at him and he smiles sarcastically, I smile sarcastically back and carry on walking.
He follows me and I try to ignore him but it's so hard to ignore the person who used to mean the world to me.
He finally catches up with me and grabs my arm and turns me around to face him, he looks into my eyes and I can see a little hint of a smile as he looks into mine.
I feel, sort of safe with him.
His face changed and he screams "why the fuck did u ignore me".
Well my feelings have defiantly changed now.
"What's wrong with you aye?" He laughs at me. i didnt say anything, i just look at the floor

"C'mon mek, you know you can tell u bestfriend everything" he laughs harder now.

"Okay, u wanna know what's wrong with me yeh, you ! U join the popular crowd then all of a sudden turn on me, it's not fair, what did I ever do to you" at this point i was in tears he didnt say anything he just looked at me, his smirk turned into a frown "rye, seriously tell me, I was there for u all the time , and u was there for me, we had something so fucking special and then u threw it away, I needed u, u had no idea what was going on the night before you turned on me. I needed you to hug me and be there for me and instead u decided to make matters worse. I can't deal with having to face u anymore, it hurts" i say whilst crying.
"M-m-mekayla, I had no idea" he stutters while still shocked.
"Well of course u didn't, hiding my feelings, I've gotten better at that"
i say wiping away tears
I turned around and walked a bit further.
"The only reason I bullied you was because I liked you" rye says quietly.
"That's not what you do Ryan, we was already close u didn't need to act out the way u did" i say. "yes i know that now, what else do u want to hear, okay im sorry, i never wanted to hurt you, but if i didnt hurt you they would have hurt me. i need you in my life and yes i know i fucked up, i dont know what else to say mek" he says crying.

i didnt know it hurt him this much.

"i-i-i" i manage to spit out
rye raises an eyebrow and just stares at me waiting for me to say something back.
"i-i i have to go" i say turning around and running off.
i run for about five minutes before i finally reach my house. i run straight up to my room without saying anything to my parents or siblings. i just throw my bags on the floor and collapse on my bed crying.

if he loved me then... why? .... why me?