My best friend's brother//Ethan Dolan

I Have Feelings For You?

Emma's POV

"Ok I think that's enough." Ethan says as he picks my up off of Gray like I weigh nothing. He holds one of my wrists and takes a few steps back so Gray can get up. He stands up and dusts off his shits.

"Thanks E." He walks towards us.

"You're dead bailey!" I jump at Grayson but I get stopped when Ethan wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me tight to his chest. I know he was just stopping me from legitimately killing his brother but for some reason I felt so happy and kinda calm. i just backed up into his warm embrace and smiled tilting my head back a bit.

The effect this guy has on me I swear.

"Shit, you're really mad." He sounds surprised.

"You only call me bailey when you are being like super serious about something." He inches closer.

I wiggle around in Ethan's arms indicating that I wanted to be let go and that i wasnt gonna kill gray. Not trusting me Ethan doesn't let go.

Why do i kinda sorta really like that he's holding me right now?

"Oh Gray... your arm." Ethan says nodding his head towards his arm. i look at it and see its been cut, more like scraped and its bleeding.

I cant believe i did that, oh my god i feel so bad.

"Oh my god Gray, im so sorry. i didnt mean to hurt you." I say starting to feel tears roll down me cheeks. All of the anger that i had towards him, all of those feelings just went away when i saw that i hurt him. I hated when i hurt him, well them. Yea sure i chased him around the house and jumped on him on numerous occations but i would never actually hurt them intentinally. i love the shit out of both of them.

"Its ok Em, i know you didnt mean it." He gives me a warm hug and Ethan backs up from behind me taking his hands with him and slowly sliding them off my waist. I shut my eyes tight not wanting to return to reality yet, not wanting him to walk away yet.

No, stop. stop your hands right there. please dont leave, don't leave me.

Thankfully he stops moving away just as his hands rest on the sides of my waist. I can feel his warm breath on my neck as Grayson hugs me tight. He moved his head in closer. He kisses the back of my head and then kisses my neck twice before pulling himself away completly.

What the hell was that?!

Grayson pulls away from me and holds my sholders tightly and looks at me.

"Are you ok?" he asks me looking concerned.

"Me? oh yea im... fine." i answer my head in my thoughts.

Why did Ethan do that? Does he like me too? Why is this happening now, just randomly i start falling in love with Ethan, oh my god! im... in love with Ethan!

"Grayson we need to talk, right now!" I grab his arm and walk upstairs to his room, my eyes not leaving the floor once. i throw him to his bed and close the door. he sits down, i lock the door and turn around. i look at him, he is giving me his 'bitch what the fuck is up' face.

"Somethings happening to me and i dont know what the fuck it is!"

"Ok?" he questions

"Gray, i need help."

Ethan's POV

"Yea, well you're not quite out of it yet bailey." Emma growled at him. Shit, shes calling him bailey. That's never good.

"Ok thats enough." I get off the stairs and pick he up off of Ethan, god she's tiny. i back up away from Gray to give him a chance to get up.

"Thanks, E."

"You're dead bailey!" Here we go again. Looks like i pulled her off just in time. she trys to jump at him but i stop her by wrapping my arms around her small waist. She went almost completely still. Right now i honestly dont know if its to save Grayson or if i just want an excuse to hold her. She's so small she fits in my arms perfectly, she smells like the perfume that i got her for her birthday, and she's so beautiful. With her long light brown hair thats cut halfway down by an hombre from brown to blue hair dye -that I dyed very well myself I might add- her perfect pink lips, and her eyes oh my god her eyes. They are this perfect shade light blue with a hint of grey in them.

I have had a crush on her since she and Grayson became best friends, but I have never acted on my feelings 'cause I don't want to do that to Gray. I have never really had good experiences with girls. they normally only last a week at most. I tell myself its 'cause they just wanna hook up but I know the real reason I always call it off is 'cause... they aren't Emmabelle. I have learned to live with it though. I can never go out with Emma, never pick her up on my bike -that she's got eyes for- never buy her dinner, never kiss her goodnight at the door when the dates over, never fall in love with her.

But I could never do that to them. their friendship would be over. Emma wouldn't come over anymore  because on me and her and Gray would slowly drift apart. They are basically as close as me and Gray are. Sure I'm close to her but -not as close as I would like to be.

"Shit you're really mad. You only call me bailey when you're super serious about something" Gray says taking a step closer to us.

Emma wiggles and squirms trying to let me know she wants me to let go. Personally I don't think she's over whatever she was mad about, so I obviously wont let her go. I also just want to keep holding her. My eyes shift from her to Gray.

"Oh Gray... your arm." Its scrapped and bleeding a bit. but he'll be fine we do stupid shit and get hurt all the time. Emma freezes in her place when she sees what she did to Grayson. I feel her whole body tighten.

"Oh my god Gray, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you." She practically chokes out in between tears.

"Its ok Em, I know you didn't mean it." He says and comes in to give her a hug.

I'm still currently wrapped around Emma's waist. I don't want to let go but it will be awkward for all of us if I didn't move. i start backing up and I feel Emma flinch and slightly turn to her side. I watch her shut her eyes and hear her mumble something I couldn't quite make out.

I stop moving with my hands now just on the side of her waist. Gray pulls her tight into a hug, I feel her hug him back. I move my head closer to the back of hers. I kiss her hair softly. I could have sworn I heard her moan, even the slightest. So I move down to her neck. I place two kisses on her ever so perfect neck before realizing what I was doing.

Oh my god, Grayson is gonna kill me!

I back away and watch as they end their hug. She has a shocked expression on her face. They exchanged words but I wasn't paying attention.

Holy shit, If Grayson knew I kinda kissed his best friend in the whole word he will end me. I need to stop, just push aside these feelings that I have for Emma. Wait, I have feelings for Emma?! What is happening to me. I never catch feels for girls. I mean I have always loved Emma cause she my closest friend but I never knew I actually LOVED her. But I cant risk having a relationship with her, I cant rick the fact that I could end Grayson and her's friendship or the friendship I have with her. I would never forgive myself.

I get pulled out of my thoughts when Em yells, "Grayson we need to talk, right now!" She grabs his arm and runs upstairs to his room and closes the door.

"Ok that's it I need to get over this." I say to myself as I pick up my jacket and head out the door. I know exactly where to go to fix this... I think.

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