Mirage || Zarry

Chapter 13.

~not edited~

When your scared your heart starts pumping like 100mph and when your happy it also goes 100mph and also when your sad and angry and every other emotion in the book. But why is that? Why do all these emotions make is so hyped?

Why is it that when you think of someone they make you nauseous but in a good way. I thought when your nauseous it means your feeling bad? so is it that you can feel a certain way for multiple things?

Weird huh? Well nothing really makes sense anymore and I guess I've learned to just Handel it and go with the flow. You can never really understand something because who says it's right?

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Harry doesn't know what happened at the office with Zayn, all he knows is that he wants it to happen again and again and again and again. He wants Zayn's mouth to be on him. He wants to feel Zayn's hands rise up his thighs and squeeze them lightly. And he wants Zayn to kiss him again. He wants to feel how soft they are and how they fit perfectly with his. But when he thinks about this stuff he doesn't know why he feels so bad. Why something in his stomach is telling him that he's done wrong and then he remembers.

Liam.

Zayn has a boyfriend. Minutes Harry wants a boyfriend to. So why can't they share? Why can't Liam share Zayn with him? Why can't Zayn sleep over sometimes and spend all day playing games and drawing and kissing with Harry and then Liam can have him sometimes to.

Sharing is good! Dad always said that sharing is important. So I bet if I asked Liam would say yes! he seems nice.

'Liam doesn't care about you Harry'

"Shh"

'You know it's true Harry! he doesn't even like you! and he knows about the cat'

"NO he doesn't know"

'Yes he does! he thinks your stupid and a freak!'

"Your a Liar!!! It was an accident and he knows it!" I starts nervously scratching at my legs! I didn't mean to hurt him he just wouldn't be quiet.

'Your a Loser Harry and you know it! Zayn did like kissing you'

"SHUT UP I HATE YOU SHUT UP!" I say throwing a lap to the side if my wall

'Go on throw another one!'

"SHUT UP LEAVE ME ALONE I HATE YOU"

'Harry you love me okay'

"NO I DONT I HATE YOU YOU ALWAYS TELL ME ZAYN DOESNT CARE YES HE DOES HE FUCKING CARES!" I throw my half shattered lap at out the window and I slip and almost fall out. I regain my balance and I look out of it. Maybe he doesn't care? what if I jumped would he come and save me? would he be here like he promised?

Flashback

"Harry you forgot this"

"Keep it"

"Are you sure?" I nod and he smiles

"You can always talk to me if you want okay? And if you'd like to see me everyday, even on the weekends I'm more than happy to open my office just for you okay Harry? Maybe we can even go to the park if you'd like, would you like that? "

End flashback

Well I need him now and if he cares he'll be here.

'Jump Harry, go on do it'

"Shhh"

'DO IT HARRY HURRY UP YOU WORTHLESS SLUT'

"SHUT UP"

'HARRY'

"STOP FUCK UHHHH" I open the window and as I'm about to jump I feel two arms around my waist. I knew he cared. But when I turned around he wasn't there it was dad.

"HARRY WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING!" he yells but I know he's not mad he's just upset. i didn't notice I was sobbing violently till my dad whips the tears away

"It's okay, it's going to be okay" I sob more. I look at the door to see my mother standing there. she looks at me then walks away.

Everything is going to be okay

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Hi short but idk It was okay! poor Harry

Anyways bye cupcakes