Just Us... (A Ray Ray/Mindless Behavior Story)

Chapter Twenty-Three- All Smilez

Chapter Twenty-Three

All Smilez

  The door opens behind me, the door closes, there was a clap from a manly hand shake, and a warm greeting. I sat in a chair facing outward the huge bay window overlooking an amazing view of New York City. I was quiet lost in my thoughts. I concentrated on the heaviness of my heart. I was alive and finally coping.

  Finally out of hiding, Finally dealing with my brother's absence, Finally able to deal with my past and not lingering in the sorrow dragging it in my future. I was finally brave enough to ask myself, What does KELEKA want? And every time I ask myself that I come up with a smile when Ray crosses my thoughts. And he crossed my thoughts as I dazed out that bay window into the New York morning like. I was back for the first time in two months of mourning. I had no contact with Ray since Georgia a month ago. The time apart gave me a deep appreciation for him in general. I was faced with the question, Are you going to stay or are you going to go?

"Aye woman?" I stared off in my lap the body of the familiar voice I knew so well hover over me with a huge smile.

"Hey you," I lifted my head coming eye to eye with my Knight in military print short, white tee, and blue /white Varsity jacket with a little blue beanie hat and a smile so Bright he was glowing.

He reached for my hand and without hesitation I took it. He guided me up from where I sat posting me against the ledge of the bay window. He pulled his pelvis into mine leaning against me. We both smile with no restriction. "How was your day?" he smiles looking me eye to eye.

"Wonderful, yours?" I bashfully look down taking the first attempt of touch lightly easing my hands to his hips underneath his jacket, my heart racing.

"We can work this out, right?" he leans in speaking into a whisper his lips barely there against mine.

"Yeah," I smiled chives down my spine.

  He started to say he was sorry. I pressed my finger against his lips. "Aye not even for us anymore," I smiled. He grabbed me close burying his face in my neck. Does it sound crazy that everything in my life is controlled? This time around I wanted to have fun. Ray and I never got a change to be mindless. It felt good smiling, we felt like a new us. I go to turn to look out the window in his sweet embrace, he stopped me looked me square in the eye. "I need you," his face serious.

  I faced him eye to eye, " Rayon... I need you! Tell me now if you can handle that.". He reached for my hand that had his ring still on it, "I got you will you let me?"

"Papa I won't lie. I'm scared of not being a good wife, a good mother. I don't know how to be anything different from what I know but I'm willing to learn."

"You are a good mother. You are definitely a good wife don't worry about that. Anything you don't know I will teach you or we will learn together."

I stared at him in disbelief. I ain't know what to do. I was speechless. "What?" he laughed at my face in question.

"Well damn? I don't if I should say I Love You or give you head?"

"You silly," he laughed at me being serious as most do, "just let me prove it to you," he smiled bashfully.

"OH HELL NAW?" I smiled.

"You deserve it, I promised Darren I would take care of you. He told me don't ask for your hand if I can't take care of you better than the men in your family to do every day. I will take care of you."

"God Be With You, I'm a piece of work."

"You think I don't know that woman," he jokes in all seriousness.