Life Isn't All Good [COMPLETED]

My life isn't worth it.

I arrived at my mother house. I rang the doorbell and she opened it. "Angel" I began to cry hard while hugging her. She rubbed my back and whispered in my ear sweet and soothing things. I saw her husband, Nicholas, walk pass her to go get my kids. I began to calm down and she walked me inside, I say down on the couch. "I'm going to make you a sex on a beach!" She walked into the kitchen. Then Nicholas tapped me and I looked up. "So...how are you holding up, I never expected him to do something like this." I wiped my face. "Me neither, but I'm okay." I kept thinking about what just happened then I remembered he used to always look at other woman, he kissed his "sister" on the lips. What the fuck was I still doing with him in the first place? I began to smile went I thought about it. Angel handed me my drink and after I was done I went to sleep on her couch. I woke up to a sizzling sound from the kitchen, it was Angel cooking some bacon. I looked at my phone to see I had 18 missed calls from Ayden. I called him back. "What do you want?" "The kids,I'm taking them." " nice try but you can't." Then I heard a knock on the door "Actually...I can." I opened the door and it was the CPS. "Are you JaLove Reyes?"  "Yes?" " I'm the child protection services and I am ordered to take your daughters." I put down the phone and next thing I knew, my children we're gone. I sat on the Angel's couch thinking about what just happened. I layed on the couch shocked. I didn't know what to do. Angel left to go to work and so did Nick. I didn't have anything or anyone left. I was just...alone in a box.  I knew what I had to do, and there was no other way. I went to the pharmacy and bought some blades. I ran some water in the tub and while it was running, I wrote a note.
I sit at home alone
Waiting for you to come home
I use to think I was boss
I can't find anything that's loss
I wanted to be an idol
You fuck up my life now I'm suicidal.
I layed the note on the Kitchen counter and went back into the bathroom. I stop the water and got in, I didn't take off my clothes not make up, I just got in. I got one of the blade on the toilet top and breathe. I cut my wrist deeply and slowly. My heart was beating fast and blood began to fill the tub. I was breathing hard and then I began to cut my other wrist the same way. I began to calm down and I relaxed and closed my eyes. 25 minutes later, I was surrounded by flowers all over and the sun was beaming in my face. A man ran up to me,picked me up. He blew into my mouth several times and tapped me. "Jay, wake up" he nudged me but I held on to him. Then he shook me. "Wake up!" I shook.