From Your Beloved

2020

BTS V and co star Moon Ga Young seen being cozy on set of new drama.

I closed my laptop and decided to focus on our new single instead. It was all over the news, his new drama. I’ve been expecting this to happen and I’m still surprised that I’m feeling annoyed by it. It was the perfect time for him to get involved in a drama after being linked to me and the troubles attached to our scandal. It’s a media ploy to divert people’s attention on other things and with him getting cozy with his costar, I can tell that it’s working.

Of course I trust him and I know that it’s just their PR work but I couldn’t help but feel jealous. After all, our relationship is long distance and even if he’s near, there are still restrictions about seeing each other. It also doesn’t help that I’m constantly mad at him and we’re almost always fighting.

I remember our last fight just recently…

“Forget it the movie’s over. Just get me home!” I slumped my back on his car almost in tantrum.

I saw him wipe his face before getting on the driver’s seat.

“There are still other movie houses open at this hour, what are you so fussy about?” He iterated calmly and started the engine.

Honestly, I really don’t like changing plans. When he said he’ll pick me up at 11pm, I’m all set. But what did he do? He showed up at 12:45am! When I saw him after opening his car door, he looks as if he just got off from his bed.

“I bet the one in Gangnam is still open.”

“Whatever.” I sighed to piss him off. I know he doesn’t like it whenever I act like a brat. But I’m pissed too so why should I spare him some good manners?

He didn’t say a word after that. I knew I hit a nerve. Now both of us are in a bad mood.

Of course when we got there, it was already closed.

“Wake me up when we reached my place.” I yawned and closed my eyes though I was fully conscious.

He wasn’t letting me win too because he turned up the volume and played Agust D’s mixtape.

I bit my lip to control myself from hitting him with my leather shoes.

When we reached home, I didn’t even say goodbye to him. Instead, I used all my strength to close the door of his car.

“I had an awesome night Lisa! I hope your attitude changes after morning comes. Oh wait, it’s morning already! I guess there’s no hope for that.” He really knows how to provoke me.

“Go away bastard!” I yelled in anger. I can feel my eyes getting teary.

“As you wish!”

I cried so hard that night. He texted me his apology the next day and sent me flowers. But I knew we’ll never be the same after that fight. I also knew something has to change.

“Did someone see my blue pouch?” Chaeng sat beside me and looked under my laptop.

“It’s not here.” I told her. We’re going out of the country for a concert and I should be excited but with my boyfriend busier than ever, I’m not so sure if I’ll enjoy this trip.

I of all people should know that being an idol means a hectic life. Who am I to demand his time for me? After all, I’m just his girlfriend and we’re not even publicly official. It just sucks that a lot of Armys love his costar and even ship them together.