From Your Beloved

2017

I never once experienced the feeling of falling in love. All along I thought love was just a feeling that gives you the tingles. Me and the girls have always been a fan of dramas and as the youngest addition to the YG family, our CEO was very protective of us especially during our trainee days that’s why our perspective of love and dating was very much limited. We only get our expectations on these shows that’s why you can probably tell how immature we are by the way we act around boys.

I really don’t expect much about relationships…but I think I’m more invested on crushes more than boyfriends nowadays.


That’s why it felt really weird when I got the chance to talk to him alone.

When I found out Jennie and I were going to do a collab with BTS’s rap line, I was more nervous than excited. Of course unnie tortured me more when we spotted 4 guys who are waiting for us in the studio instead of 3.

I can’t believe he came along with them. Was he promoted to be a rapper now? I didn’t think it was possible.

We were watching our friends finalize their parts inside the recording studio when I stole a glance at him.

He looked really uncomfortable…like he was sitting on pins and needles. I didn’t know why but I’m enjoying my time seeing him like this. It was so different of him to be like this candid. The Kim Taehyung sitting on the couch in front of me now was far from the BTS’s V who was slaying like a god on music shows.

“They won’t be done talking soon trust me. You’ll get hungry waiting for them.” I said amused. I found out that he came with his hyungs because he told me he’s a fan of the YG cafeteria.

I wanted to ask him if that was the only reason. I mean there are a lot of people to look forward to seeing in YG. Like when I first stepped in this place, I prayed and prayed to see even just a sight of Top Oppa.

I saw him lick his lip – a habit of him I had now witnessed up close – before looking back at me. I couldn’t handle his face. His presence was just too much that I went out the room first.

I held my chest and let out a breath as I leaned on the wall. I evened out my breathing thinking about what happened.

Did I seem obvious? Will he think that I’m crushing on him just because I invited him to eat at the cafeteria? I thought boys don’t take hints!

I was staring blankly at the floor when I heard the door creaked open.

I didn’t know how I kept it cool but the moment I saw him smile at me, I thought my heart would combust out my chest.

If you happen to have crushes, don’t stare at their faces for too long. For you never know that it could be dangerous. Because that’s where it starts. It will only take a while before you realized that you’ve fallen and by that time you do, you wouldn’t be able to control it because you’ve sunk too deep.

Aaaaaack!

I feel my cheeks heat up as we pose side by side to take a selfie together. Although his hand never touched my shoulder, I could feel it’s warmth hovering over.

I didn’t think being with him would come as natural as this. Sure we’ve had our awkward moments before but I didn’t expect we’d click this fast.

We were choosing our food when our topic got to photography.

By the time we reached our table, we sat side by side and talked about the beauty of capturing moments.

“Maybe if I’m not an idol, I think I’ll be a photographer. Or if not that, I’ll definitely get into an art school.” He said while taking 2 slices of gimbap in his mouth.