Just once someone heartless
made me feel special
but, our story had already ended
thank you for the memories
A,
I really don't know how to start this letter. Hello. It's been a while.
I'm just going to tell you about my realizations ever since you left me hanging.
You do know that I'm a person who can't face most of her problems, I'd been running away from problems like this but for you, I will face it. I will stop running and I will face you.
I hate you. I hate you for hurting me, my feelings. I hate you for leaving me hanging. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.
But I know, it's not your fault, I was a fool to believe that you will actually change. Still, I hate you.
Tomorrow will be the 2nd week of you leaving me hanging, hoping that you'll come back. And tomorrow will be the day to see you once again.
I'm still having second thoughts if I should face you already, but I demand closure for what happened to us. I wanted to convince myself that I have no more feelings for you.
You might think that I'm still crying over you, but no, you're wrong.
You might think that I can't smile fully or laugh loudly, but no, you're wrong.
You might think that I've been thinking of you for the last two weeks, but no, you're wrong.
You might think that my life is miserable because you left me, but no, you're wrong.
The night you left me hanging, I had a choice, to wait for you to come back or to move on and be happy. And I choose to be happy and here I am now, happy.
May 8, after two months, you decided to leave me hanging, you leaving me wasn't a big impact to me anymore because I've been used that you're not by my side anymore.
I forgive you for everything. I forgive you. And I want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. And I'm sorry for not waiting you.
D
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Author's Note:
Namiss ko lang sila.
May 21, '18 ✨
