you started asking questions and the growing intensity of my symptoms weren't helping at all.
you'd try to ask me at times when i wasn't paying attention, hoping that i 'd accidentally tell you.
whatever the hell that was wrong with me. i almost did sometimes.
my mood swings were getting worse and you trying to get me to talk wasn't helping at all and so one time, i snapped at you.
"mind your own fucking business."
i had never yelled at you before taehyung, sure we've had small fights but not like this. i had never cursed at you.
you were really hurt, i could see it in your eyes but you gave a tiny smile.
"sorry for overstepping my boundries, i won't pressurise you anymore, you can tell whenever you're ready."
you walked out and my heart gave a painful squeeze. to say i felt bad was an understatement.
and after having a mental breakdown, i walked after you, to apologise.
and to finally tell you everything.
i could hear my heart pounding at an abnormal pace and it just kept increasing with each step that i took towards your house.
sometimes i wish it would just stop beating at all.
