My Badass Boyfriend (Under Revising)

Kabanata 1

-Kabanata 1-

"Get dressed..." Morgan said after the long silence. "Get dressed and leave my house. You want a break up, right?"

Dahan-dahan akong napa-angat ng tingin at hindi makapaniwalang tinitigan siya. "Matapos mong..." sa halip na ipagpatuloy ko ang sasabihin ay pinili ko na lamang ang manahimik.

I can't think of anything sensible, I can't think of anything to say. I couldn't find a word to answer him.

"Now, I'll give it to you. We're done and you can leave." 

"H-how dare you!"

Muli ko siyang tiningnan at sa pagkakataong ito ay unti-unti ko nang nabawi ang lakas ko. But still, I couldn't avoid being hurt when I saw his expressionless face. Even though I was in this situation I still couldn't avoid not being fascinated by his muscular body.

I secretly trailed my eyes across him. Morgan is tall and had a very athletic built. He has dark brown hair with a mid-fade undercut. Has deep-set smoldering dark eyes that if you look at it; you will tremble with fear. He has natural strong and thick eyebrows.

His sharp nose, which I always pinch when I get annoyed with him. His sharp check bones that I always caress when he is sweet to me. His thin red lips that I always flick when he says a lot.

"Do I have to repeat myself?" matigas na tanong niya.  "It's just a hymen, Cleiya. What do you expect? You expect me to come back to you?"

Kumuyom ang aking kamao. Tumibok nang mabilis ang puso ko hindi dahil sa nararamdaman kong pagmamahal sa kaniya. Kundi dahil sa galit, ang galit na unti-unting sumasakop sa aking buong sistema.

"A hymen?" hindi makapaniwala na tanong ko. "You took my virginity and dignity, Morgan! Not just a hymen—"

"Don't be special, Cleiya," he says, cutting me off.  "I only keep you as my girlfriend to pleasure me. And there, I got what I wanted from you..." he paused for a moment as he maliciously chewed his bottom lip. "You made me so happy, to think that I was the one who broke your hymen. Thank you for giving me your virginity, it was nice fucking you, really. And again, I'm breaking up with you. So please leave my house now."

Umawang ang mga labi ko. Pakiramdam ko ay nakikipag-usap lamang siya sa isang bayarang babae na pagkatapos niyang gamitin ay kaagad niyang palalayasin. How dare him!

"What you did to me was against women's rights, Morgan. I will sue you! I will file a lawsuit for you!" I shouted.

"Let's meet in court then." Nanunuyang tinitigan niya ako. Pagkuwan ay tumawa siya ng malakas iyong nakakapang-insulto. "It's as if you don't like what I did to you. Are you not satisfied?"

My lips parted. Was he not guilty or ashamed of what he did to me? I couldn't believe it! I can't imagine that he's the person I love. And now, he looks like a demon to me. Oo nga pala, kahit noon pa man ay may pagkasa-demonyo na talaga ang ugali niya. Ngunit sa kabila niyon ay mas nanaig ang pagmamahal ko sa kaniya.

Mas pinili ko siyang intindihin at iyon ang pinakamalaking pagkakamaling nagawa ko. Dahil sa ginawa kong iyon, nalagay ko sa kapahamakan ang aking sarili. Kung alam ko lang sanang aabot kami sa ganito, sana noon ko pa siya hiniwalayan.

"Minahal mo ba talaga ako, Morgan?" buong tapang kong tanong.

Hindi nakatakas sa aking paningin ang gulat na rumihistro sa kaniyang mukha. Sa halip na sagutin ang tanong ko ay pinukol niya ako ng matalim na tingin.

"Leave my house now." Mariin at walang puso niyang utos sa akin.

Doon sumabog ang galit kong kanina ko pa kinikimkim. May kung anong puwersang sumanib sa aking pagkatao na nagpabilis sa aking pagtayo. At nakita ko na lamang ang aking sarili na sinasampal siya nang paulit-ulit. Habang siya naman ay walang humpay sa pagsangga sa aking mga kamay.