UNDERGOING REWRITE // Apples [Ledger Joker x OC]

Another Boring Update But it's Like Actually Important This Time (HIATUS)

Hey everyone! Yes, the rumours are true, I have been dead this whole time. Currently writing this from the grave. Joker says hey.

Also:

Hot dayum.

No, in all seriousness, I'm sorry for not being active like... at all. It's been since, what, January now? And I missed the anniversary for Apples, too... what can I say, my life's been rather... eventful lately. I really want to say sorry, but I have to admit- dealing with depression, meds, school, school, SCHOOL, and upcoming exams, Wattpad has kinda been the furthest thing from my mind. In these last few weeks my mind has not been in the best of shape- I've certainly began to feel better- but the last month or so has been awful, really, just terrible. Nothing to worry about really, it's just school and the stress of grades and uni (or not wanting to go, being scared to go, wanting to focus on my mental health) that's been dragging me down.

Which is why this update is IMPORTANT, because it's going to affect this story.

So, like all things that eventually die, certainly most things that die on Wattpad, they're stuck on life support under the flimsy declaration of a 'HIATUS'. Yes, that word, yeesh, even I hate it. Like remember how every emo band we liked in 2012 said they were going on a hiatus and the only group that actually adhered to the promise to come back was Fall Out Boy? Yeah, like that.

sksksk enough of the jokes!! I have exams for the next two months or so, so yeah, just so you can actually know what's happening, Apples is going on a hiatus. I hate leaving you all in the dark- it's mean, and lazy, and I've never particularly liked it when fanfics I fall in love with suddenly die with a million loose ends still woven all around the place. It's annoying, irritating, and insulting after you've invested yourself in a series of characters, plots and relationships. I GET IT. But I've always promised, Apples is not going ANYWHERE. I've said this a million times- I have a story to tell and no matter what, even if it takes me a decade to do, I'm reaching the end of it. I'm just as invested in this story as some of you (hopefully) are- and I already know what happens!

It's just like, yeah, depression has really bummed me out, I'm never motivated, and school never gives me time. But I'm starting to find hope again, and trust me, not a day goes by where I don't think about this story.

So just to make it very clear- Apples is staying. It's just going on hiatus until hopefully the end of June, start of July. I know that's a while but like, whatever, it's still my story, so even if nobody is left to read it, I'll be breaking my bones on my keyboard trying to spit it all out :')

Another thing with Apples is that like... reading back at the last 10 chapters... they could be better. And I've been mulling it over in my head for a while what I should do about it. (if you followed my twitter, @ thekillingj0k3, you'd have seen my rant about it lmao.) There's just a list of things I have been increasingly... unhappy with. And since you are my readers, I'd like to share it with you and discuss this- I see Apples as a project as well as a story, because I really do just sit there researching the hell out of stuff for this story. Seriously, if you could see how many notes and papers I have lying around my room, planning and re-planning and re-planning again. Maybe I'm blowing this sense of community out of proportion but like, I feel like we're both kinda watching the story unfold here. And sometimes, I haven't been so happy with the way it has- just every now and then. So, like... yeah, feel free to comment anything here, whether it's feedback, support, criticism, whatever. Honesty, really- especially since you have the angle that you don't know how the story is gonna go like I do. Unbiased opinion, I guess? I find it good to be critical of my own work- I think if you're too confident you can't really get better at it, because then you can't see where you can be better. So tell me what you think!!