Have You Ever?

New beginning

I was loading my bags into the car while my parents are in the house making sure we got everything we needed.

My phone rings, showing me the caller's ID that I rather not know of.

It's Mr. CENSORED.

I hit declined.

He doesn't earn a chance to apologize to me, and absolutely not a chance for me to hear him out.

Fuck him and his story.
He can take his explanations and shove it up his ass for all I care.

My phone beeps with a text.

Him: Babe. Pick up the phone.

He called me again, and I hit decline, again.

Him: I know you're there. At least answer my calls.
Me: What is it left to talk about?
Him: Us.
Me: Us was over the moment you decided to put me on your cold side.
Me: It's done now. It's just me and you. Not we nor us.
Him: Well I'm sorry okay. At least hear me out.
Me: Hear you out? You don't have that privilege anymore. I don't care about what you want to say. If you wanted to tell me, you should've done it before you fucked everything up.

He tries calling me again, this time I picked up.

"Fuck you and your explanation."
"Babe.. I'm sorry. I know I hurt you,"
"Hurt me?" I scoffed, "bitch you broke me. I've been through a solid week of hell. I was depressed. I was losing my shit, I have a fucking meltdown every night."
"I know.."
"You know? Why is it so weak? Where's the confidence in your words? Where they at right now? I don't think you actually know what I've been through because of your coldness. And that results you of not having the privilege to talk to me right now nor ever again. Good bye."

I hung up.

Him: Calm down. I know you're still mad at me. I got it. But please let me tell you this, I love you. I do.
Me: Mad? I'm already passed that stage. I'm on the level of realization now.
"I love you", don't you mean 'Loved'? 
I was nothing but another girl you toy with wasn't I? Shame on you for using me. And shame on me as well for letting myself fall for your sick trick.
Him: No... babe.. please
Me: Just get the fuck out of my life. Let me be. And I hope that somewhere along the line we won't meet each other.

I blocked his number.
I leaned against the car and cried my heart out.

"Honey, you okay?", I turned around to see my mom standing behind me.
I gave her a weak nod and smile, "yeh."
"I know you're sad about us leaving here, but I know you'll do fine at our new home. I have faith in you." She said, pulling me for a hug. "Don't worry kiddo. You are free to leave everything behind you because are going to start a new life in High School with nothing but happiness."