Try Hard // l.h.

34: I Know

So today was my last day with the guys and I have yet to tell Luke. I'm such a failure. I leave at midnight, which I think is the weirdest time for a flight, but whatever.

They were all depressed and Michael and Ashton think I'm the biggest procrastinator in the world.

Luke and I were just cuddled up in our room.

"I don't want you to leave," he mumbled into my head.

"I know, but well Skype," I said.

He sighed.

"Yeah but I'm going to miss you so much," he began kissing my shoulder," I'm going to miss your smile, your laugh, your kisses, everything."

I blushed.

"Luke I love you," I said.

"I love you too," he said.

You wouldn't once you found out my secret. I mean he flipped about the whole Jake thing.

"Luke, would you ever hate me," I asked.

He laughed.

"Emma, I could never hate you. Even when you piss me off I still live you," he said.

I smiled a bit. Maybe now was my chance.

"Luke, I'm p-"

"Knock knock," damn you Calum,"we're going to get lunch, c'mon."

"Ah I'm starving," Luke said jumping up.

Well I guess I'll tell him later.

-

We ended up going to Nandos. How freaking surprising.

"'I'm going to miss you Emma,"Calum said.

"Guys remember, we can still talk," I smiled.

"Yeah, but we won't get to see you," he said.

I sighed.

"I know, but lets just enjoy this day. No talking about me leaving," I smiled. The guys agreed.

Thank god!

After eating and talking we went back to the hotel.

I was currently packing. Best to get it out of the way now.

"So what we you saying earlier," Luke asked flopping on the bed.

I took a deep breath.

"Earlier I was trying to tell you," I paused," I'm-"

Then my phone rang. Are you kidding me!

It was my mom it's like 8am her time.

"Hello," I answer giving Luke an apologetic face.

He smiled saying it was fine.

-

I was on the phone with my mom for two straight hours. She was talking about how she went out and naught a crib and a changing table. God I'm not even like a month pregnant.

It was like nine here, and the guys ordered pizza for dinner. It was a quiet meal. I had to leave for the airport in 1 and a half hours, everyone was bummed.

"Guys, smile. It will just be a year, maybe less," I stated.

They all shrugged.

Sissies.

After dinner everyone went to their rooms and started packing. They left first hong tomorrow.

I was helping Luke.