My story

Chapter; 5

Thus one's going to be a short chapter :)

‘I don’t smoke, do drugs or drink, never have, never will’ I said after calming down and stopped crying. Reece looked up and me and said ‘Tell them what your father did when he saw us hug’ my head hang low. I took another deep breath in ‘He saw the hug, grabbed my arm and drug his fingers in, pushed me in to the wall and grabbed me by the hair, by that stage I knew he was going to hurt me bad, he told me to never see Reece again, and by memory I muttered something under my breath, he heard it and pushed me when I was walking away, I hit my head on the wall, blacked out and woke up with a black eye and 3 black bruises on my arm’ I said as fast as I could.

I wanted to get that over and done with so I wouldn't cry again. ‘Oh my lord, you can stay as long as you need’ Deb said getting up pushing the chair away from underneath her. Liv started to have tears run down her face. And Georgina was the same. I was really scared for a while, and then I felt really loved people cared for me.

 ‘Don’t worry about me, I’m fine I can look after myself’ I said, ‘with help’ Darren said quietly I looked at him and smiled. I think that was him offering me to stay more, unless it was a rude remark, but I don't think it was after he smiled at me. ‘Thanks for your help guys, I just hope he doesn’t find me’ I laughed a dead laugh.

 Later that night Reece invited me to his room to talk, I was really worried. He opened his door and his room was fully of posters and guns & roses t-shirts on the floor. Bed wasn't made and it smelt of boy. He sat down on the bed, and I sat on the floor. 'You can sit on the bed you know?' he said smiling and letting out a little laugh. 'Yeah, but the floors fluffy though!' I said laughing. 'Want to talk about what happened? I mean you've done enough of that and I know you got really upset tonight, but you didn't tell me that your mum tried to' he paused 'Kill herself' I sighed, this isn't what I wanted to talk about. 'Reece, I don't want to talk about it at the moment if that's alright, I just want to be happy.' I said smiling.

He looked at my with those sorry blue eyes. 'sor-' I cut him off 'uh! Happy!' I said holding my finger to his lips. 'Okay Mrs Amber, what ever you say' He smiled and got up. He looked at his posters. 'What you into?' I looked around. 'Aerosmith, his song um.. Don't want to miss a thang' I laughed. 'Oh yeah, Steven Tyler, he rocks, I love him... No homo' He laughed. 'I'm not agenised gays' I laughed. I was myself a bi-sexual; how could I hate my own?

'Um, sweet child of mine, Gun and Roses of corse.' I smiled. Dad used to play all these old song to me in the car, that's when we had a car. '3 doors down, Here without You' my heart sprung up 'Good. Charlotte. My. God. I love you!' I ran to the poster and held my face agenised it and closed my eyes. I pulled my face away, and portended to whip drool away from the corner of my mouth 'Okay, I better stop fan girling over them' Reece looked at me and laughed. 'You know allot about these bands huh?' he looked at me with a simile showing his teeth. 'Sure do!' I smiled.

 That night I went to bed, and cried. I got in the cold sheets, curled up into a bawl to keep warm. But I got really hot, really fast. These were good sheets. I started to think to myself  ‘Why does my dad have to do this to me? Why must he take it all out on his only child?” I tried not to sob, I sniffled my nose and rubbed my eyes. I played with my hair and looked into the darkness. I feel so alone sometimes. Like I always want someone to be there with me, watching over me. We all know that wont happen. Reece will see his ways, other people will be more important than me. The thought of that made me sob again. Why? It repeated in my head, over and over again. I just felt like crying till I couldn’t cry anymore.

I was trying to be quite. But I think I was to loud because I could see some sort of light come threw my door and a bit of a creak as my door opened. I think it was Reece.. ‘Everything alright?’ He said tiredly. ‘Yes, but stubbed my toe.’ I lied. That was lame, Amber. God I’m stupid. I sniffed up my runny nose and ran my hands across my eyes.’ Doesn’t sound like it’ He laughed. He sat next to me and out his arm around my shoulder, and pushed me in to his warm bare skin ‘Want to talk about it?’ He whispered into my ear. His warm breath blew on to the top of my ear.  Don’t get carried away Amber. He held my head with his face into the said of my hair. Almost like he was kissing it.  He turned his face to side. My body fit into his muscular arms. I snuggled into them abit more.

I couldn't help it. I NEEDED to talk to someone, anyone who'd listen. ‘I just don’t get it.. Why he’d do this to me.’ I said I pushed my face into his chest ‘After everything I did for him’ I said looking at him in the darkness. ‘I know Amber, I don't know personally what you've been threw, but somehow it WILL get better. And It’s alright, Mum said stay as long as you need.. As long as you help out’ he laughed ‘Trust mum to say that’ He smirked. I could hear him breathing. His heartbeat. The most southing sound. The girl who gets him will be lucky. ‘Thanks’ I said whipping way the tears. I pushed out of his warm arms, trying not to offend him. We sat in silence for a while .I picked up my nails most of the time. I felt the bed move and the light switched on.

My eyes closed because of the brightness, and by what I could see so were Reece’s I laughed abit. ‘It’s 1:45 in the morning, I’m not tired anymore. Are you?’ Reece asked while covering his eyes. ‘Nuh’ I said laughing. I think Reece, may be my first best friend.. EVER.