My story

Chapter; 10

I turned up to Reece’s locker about 30 seconds before the bell went. I stood around the corner abit, avoiding Olivia just incase she came out. I saw Reece’s brown hair come out of the class room; he looked around biting his lip. I thought I’d put him out of his misery and show myself to him. He looked over, missing my eye contact. His face cracked a smile ones he knew it was me.

‘Where were you?’ He said with a smile on his face, happy to see me. Probably happy to see me alive.  ‘Just at the back of the oval, I couldn’t be bothered to come to class.’ I said while I faked a smile. It went back down fast though. I couldn’t keep it up, I just wanted to cry. ‘So I don’t need to worry?’ Reece said looking into my eyes, straight into my soul. ‘Nope’ I whispered back. I was sinking into his blue heavenly eyes.

Just thinking about it made me nose start to hurt from tearing up and crying. I wanted to tell him everything, and just let it all out. But I know he’d do something. I know he’d worry, tell me everything would be alright. He knows it won’t be alright. He knows he’d have to worry.

 I felt bad for lying, I felt guilty. But I don’t want to ruin things between his friends and him. He’s not going to turn out like me. Because I don’t want anyone to feel like I do. To be hurt every single god damn day. To not even know what being happy feels like. To think that death is the only way out of the hell hole of my life.  I was a loner. But one person, one single person, changed that. He bought the feelings back to my heart. He’s giving me a better future by just taking me out of my Fathers house. I don’t know how to thank him.

We walked in silence for a while. I started to pick at the skin on my arms; another way of self harming. ‘So when’s your date with Olivia?’ I asked still picking at my arm. Please tell me he cancelled it. No Amber what are you saying? He needs friends... But not HER!

‘Tomorrow night, why?’ He asked tilting his head and looking at me. ‘Oh, just wanted to know what I’ll be doing.  Like staying home with Liv or something.’  I said, only HALF lying. I did want to know what I’d be doing at his house. ‘Whatever you want, just don’t burn the house down’ He said smirking at me. I slapped him playfully on the arm. ‘Bitch’ I muttered under my breath while laughing.

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We got home and I placed my bag neatly next to my bed. I took off my School polo shirt with the GoldenGroveHigh School symbol on it and folded it neatly on my bed. I heard Reece’s door close quietly as he exited his room.

I slid my shorts off and sat on the bed. I sighed a bit. I wonder what Olivia and Reece will get up to? Most likely the night will either end in alcohol or something sexual, knowing Olivia. I hope he doesn’t encounter some sort of STI from her, because that would just be devastating. I might just by him a box of condoms, just incase.

I picked up my jeans from on my floor from this morning, and put them on. They hugged my hips and butt, making them look every nice, if I do say so myself. I grabbed my stained uniform on the floor and placed them in the laundry with the rest of the uniforms on the washing machine.

I heard the T.V blasting threw the house, so I followed the sound and found Reece watching Family Guy on the couch. ‘Were are the girls?’ I questioned him looking around the house. ‘They’ve gone out’ Reece said, still looking at the T.V hugging a pillow with his lips pouting a bit

I let out a little laugh on the inside. He’s a soft bear on the inside. ‘Mind if I sit here?’ I asked Reece slowly walking towards him. ‘Not at all darling, take a seat.’ He said patting the couch cushion next to him. We sat there in silence while watching countless episodes of Family Guy.

I put one hand on the top of the couch and flung my body around ‘Um Reece?’ I said waiting for him to reply. ‘Yeah?’ he started to turn his head towards me slowly, not taking his eyes off the T.V until his head was fully facing mine. I cleared my throat. My body was getting hot and cold flushes. ‘Do you like Olivia?’ I said, with my voice breaking.

He looked between my eyes for a few seconds. ‘I don’t know. I... I don’t know. Why?’ He said looking at me, trying to hide a smile. Because I think I like you! No, I can’t tell him that. ‘Don’t let her hurt you. She’s know for that.. Just be careful’ I said placing my hand on his thigh. He looked at me in silence and was going to say something before I interrupted him ‘I think I’ll head off to bed.’

I said standing up and walking off with my head held low. I could feel him watching me as I walked off. My eyes were started to water, but I pushed the tears back.

I heard the T.V turn off while I was walking away. ‘Amber, it’s like 8:30?’ he said while walking behind me. I could feel his confusion in the air. ‘I’m tired. Remember, we stayed up late last night?’ I said trying not to show any attitude; because I’m pissed off. What if they end up dating? What if he turns agenised me? ‘What’s wrong?’ Reece said as I walked into the room I was currently staying in. I sighed abit. ‘Nothing Reece, I’m just tired.’ He gave me puppy dog eyes.

I sighed mentally. I looked down at the ground and rubbed my feet on the carpet. ‘Just don’t hate me…’ I looked up to him and we raised his eyebrows ‘Olivia will say things, just please don’t hate me’ I sighed. ‘But you’ve done nothing wrong?’ he questioned. ‘I know, but it just, I don’t know. Have a great night tomorrow. I might go for a morning walk tomorrow, so don’t worry if I’m not here’ and with that I slowly shut the door without a reply from Reece.