So What

-9-

Warning suicide in this chapter
Now it starts

"Gabby?"

Someone behind me asked.

I turned my head coming face to face with Zach my old crush. I blushed remembering when I fell flat on my face and he helped me up. I was to tongue tied to answer so I just smiled at him. And ran off to my friends. They all talked and giggled at me.

"Gabby?" he asked again

"yeah. Hey Zach. How have you been. It's been awhile." I said confidentialy remembering I had a tear streaked face rubbed my face with my hand.

"I have been good. How bout you? Is it ok if I ask why have you been crying."
concern laced his voice.I

"I was good but I had a major fight with Keeley. Do you remember her? That's why I'm crying." I sighed

He enveloped me into a warm hug. I breathed in his signature scent.

"thanks" I sniffled tears sstarted to run down my face

I don't think that's what he was going for

"did I do something" he asked urgently

"no" I chocked out

I hugged my knees closer to my chest which wasn't really possible, I had my knees pressed against my chest pretty tightly before.

"I just want to die" I said

"no I won't let you"

"what do you care. I haven't seen you for 4 years why now" I yelled at him getting up

He grabbed my wrist. I twisted pit and ran to my car locking it as I got in.

"gabby just hear me out" he said tapping on the glass

"no. I'm not having this conversation with you" I said turning on the car starting to pull out.

I drove around them stopped on the side of the road thinking over my options. I could die I could live and hate everyone I could start New. The only reasonable idea I had was just to die. I felt like everyone hated me. Why what did I do to them. Maybe I'm pushing them away nope defiantly not that.

I know I will go stay with London for a week. She will understand. She knows what it likes.

I pulled up to London's house getting out of the car, I caught a glimpse of myself in the side mirror. I was a mess.

I rang the door bell. Waited a little when London finally came to the door.

She opened it saw my face ushered me in Sat me on the couch with a blanket she got soft drink, lollies an wine glasses for the soft drink.

"What happened? Wait no. Do you want to talk about it?" she asked

I shook my head and cuddled up into the blanket.

"can I stay for a week. People have just been uhh lately. And I feel more down then ever. I want to just die"

" well babe stay as long as you want. Don't die cos who will I have to save my life when I'm feeling really bad." she joked but an underlying seriousness.

"thanks" I said showing some lollies into my mouth.

"let's watch a movie"

"ok"

"what do you wanna watch sad girl"

"I wanna watch a scary movie"

"was that a smile?"

"through the window? Scary enough"

"yep. Let's watch"

~~~~ movie finished ~~~~

"that was good." I said smiling

"do you wanna talk about it now?"

"yep sure"

Well it started when Keeley came down. She threw giant parties then told the roommates it was me. now they hate me cos of her. I cried a lot. Then I was at the beach and I saw Zach"

"I remember Zach" she sighed

"he was trying to help. Probably publicity tho. We hugged. He wouldn't let me die. You know how you just let it be, but he's just like you can't die I won't let you.

I got up he grabbed my wrist hard. I have a bruise now. I was lucky enough to get out and get to my car before he could catch me again. Then I came here. That's my tragic story"

"you can stay as long as you need babe"

"how have you been babe. I haven't seen you for so long."

"well it's been kind of tough." She  replied sadly

"my best friend committed suicide an overdose. It would have been horrible for her. I walked into her house to find her on the kitchen floor pills around her and down her throat. She looked deathly pale. I called the cops they said she died just before I got there. It's all my fault. If only I got there earlier." at this point she also had tears streaming down her face

"it's ok babe. It's for a good reason. The universe always has a plan" I said hugging her.

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Thanks guys for reading. I have been begged for this next chapter. I wrote it in 2 days. So if doesn't exactly match the rest of the book sorry.

Gab