Something inside me has been unsettling for a while
Eating me and swallowing me to a void I can never go back
A void, almost an abyss
Dark, pitch black
Time is frozen
The tips of a clock
Sit still
Tick, tock, tick, tock
I'm wide awake
I see it.
I see the light, but I can't seem to reach it
I scream for help but it seems so quiet
I'm trying
But its not working
For me
Not once, not ever.
The monsters under my bed
Become demons in my head
Gnawing me
Calling me
Pulling me to an obession, fears
A phobia
Dark, silent
Dark and silent would be
Descriptions of my haven
My paradise
A dream land
I seek all the time
Because my head hurts from overthinking
Its always loud in my mind
Like a dog, I am leashed
Leashed to a dozen terrors
Attached to the same questions
Am I worth it?
Am. I. Worth. It?
And suddenly
Cuts and stains of blood
Satisfy me
Like it would silence the loudness
Silence the terrors
Answer my questions
Be my salvation
Tick, tock, tick, tock
Freeze.
Silence
Breathe
Calm
Numb.
I'm wide awake
I see it.
My terrors
My fears
My questions
Breathe.
I'm screaming for help
But no one seems to hear it.
It's not working
Silence.
Just silence.
