Static [manxman]

This Curse Called Life

Ice crawled through my veins

Sitting across from you

In a room where the walls just kept closing in

Breath siphoned from my lungs

Your eyes like drills

Tearing in my mere oil well

A slight slip of the tongue

And you'd known

Because I was bitter

Because these secrets are venomous

Poison seeping through my system

The dark bruises circling my neck

Ashy burns dotting my umber skin

I didn't even have the excuse of abuse

All I wanted was release

It'd been a dark place

Crawling out no longer an option

Drowning beneath raucous, berating waves

That knocked me down a peg

Reminded me pure happiness remained out of reach

Throwing in my face that my love would eventually become my resentment

It was the next logical step

Attempting to end it

But just like last time I tried

I failed

Because this curse called life won't tear its fangs from my throat

Leaving love... it's not my first choice

But I don't know how much longer I can stay

When I'm almost gone

Already slipped through the cracks

The man you once loved

Reduced to nothing but a monster

And then my biggest fear will be realized...

You'll want me to die

As much as I want to