To Kyungsoo's amazement, living with Kim Kai is not as bad as it sounds. It has been approximately three days since they entrenched themselves in this tiny apartment, and the black haired has not thought about murder even once. Thinking back at the time Baekhyun has lived in his apartment for the two weeks of big beef with Chanyeol, he has had at least fifteen possible plans to get rid of somebody's body without anyone noticing. But now, it turns out Kim Kai - or rather Jongin - is a very pleasant roommate. He's clean and tidy, makes jokes now and then, and can cook. Well, almost. He knows at least 20 different ways to make ramyeon more interesting, but doesn't even know how long it takes to cook some rice. Kyungsoo can smell Kai's student past in the way he measures rice.
But besides all the neat and pleasant sides of Kim Jongin, Kyungsoo has one problem. His chest.
It's not the fact that both their chests shine in baby blue like night lights all the time, he's come not to notice it anymore like your brain not noticing the nose in your face, but what's inside his chest is troubling him. His heart.
He's had a lot more heart attacks recently, not because he got scared, but because of simple things Jongin does. The way he wordlessly reaches for the top shelf when Kyungsoo needs something, or the way he silently smiles, smirks, frowns or pouts while reading a book. The small things make his heart pound, and he doesn't understand why.
It's the fourth evening for them spending it together. They have been super awkward around each other during the first evening, but since they got more and more comfortable, they now share the small couch and the popcorn in between.
"What are we watching tonight?", the black haired asks randomly, checking his phone one last time before turning it mute.
"Insidious?"
"Ah-", Kyungsoo begins, but interrupts himself and doesn't end his sentence.
"What?" Jongin grins as if he already knows. And of course he already knows, because them being soulmates lets them know a lot more about each other than they could assume.
"I... I don't really like this movie", Kyungsoo admits, hiding his red face behind a pillow. " I'm easily scared..."
Jongin melts over his red ears and laughs, nodding. "Yeah, I understand. Horror isn't really my genre as well."
"Then why did you suggest it in the first place!?" The black haired grumbles, throwing his pillow at Jongin.
"Maybe because you're adorable when you're embarassed, Kyungsoo-ssi." Jongin has a shit eating grin on his face and Kyungsoo feels the heat in his ears. There. These small remarks are what makes his heart pound. The fact that Jongin is ridiculously good looking, especially when he smiles, is not helping.
"Let's just watch any movie", he mumbles, arms crossed over his chest. Jongin ends up choosing Spirited away, an anime movie by Ghibli studios. Kyungsoo has always been a fan of Ghibli movies, but this one is his favourite. They watch the movie in silence, both amazed by the art style and animation, until the point where Chihiro runs to her parents and can't even remember her real name. Chihiro is crying her heart out and while Haku sits next to her, Kyungsoo hears a silent sniff beside him. He almost doesn't dare looking sideways but does it nevertheless. The image before him makes his heart wrench.
Kim Jongin, popstar and celebrity, loved by millions for his fierce and sexy image, sits there next to him, wrapped in his super fluffy blanket, and cries like a baby.
Kyungsoo almost drops his popcorn. He can't even laugh about Jongin's crying face like he usually does with his friends. His expression is just so awfully heart wrenching, it physically hurts him to watch the taller. The black haired puts the popcorn aside and shoots a little closer.
"Jongin-ah, i-is everything alright?"
"Yes...", the dancer replies, but only cries more.
"Doesn't look alright to me."
"It's nothing, really, I just-" Jongin sighs, burying himself deeper in his blanket until only half his face is uncovered. He looks at Kyungsoo and the older gulps. His eyes make him so damn soft. "I... I can tell you, can't I? You're my soulmate, after all..."
"Of course you can", Kyungsoo answers and slaps himself mentally. Why does he do that? They are soulmates, that's right, but that doesn't mean he listens to a stranger's problems, as if he hasn't enough by himself. Then again, they're not total strangers anymore. The popstar sighs again and rubs his eyes.
"It's just that-... Chihiro is a character I can relate to. Like, a lot."
Kyungsoo doesn't say anything. He knows when people are truly troubled, and he prefers to listen over talking. Jongin continues and looks broken and done like a used toy.
"We both, Chihiro and I, have two personalities. One that is our true self and one that is given us by others. For her, it's Sen and Chihiro. And for me, it's Kai and Jongin. Don't get me wrong, Kai is a part of me like Sen of Chihiro. The thing is just that we both tend to forget ourselves over our alternative personalities."
Jongin sniffs and then looks at Kyungsoo as if he's been beaten black and blue. He looks tired and somehow awfully drained.
"Being a popstar is no fun, Kyungsoo-ssi. All the work you put in is barely appreciated. You live a fake life after all. I live the life of Kai, a sexy dancing beast who enjoys being the middle of attention. Over the years of training, I forgot how to be myself, how to be Jongin. Can I tell you a secret? I am absolutely not sexy. No, absolutely not. I am a dumb kid who doesn't know anything except dancing and singing. I cry a lot, and my heart is very soft. I want to love, but there is no one to love for me. Formerly, I thought once I found my soulmate, I can live happily ever after with him or her. But by the time I got older, I realized I could never do that to him or her. I could never force somebody to live a life like mine, especially not somebody I love. Our stories are different in that point, Chihiro's and mine, I mean. She gets to go back to her former life, while I-"
The younger breaks out in tears. Kyungsoo is shaken, he doesn't know what to do. He can understand Jongin's point of view, and he feels bad for being such an awful soulmate. He never considered that soulmates are something near elysion for some people. He hesitantly shoots closer to Jongin, carefully patting his hand while caressing his hair. Silent words of comfort escape his lips while the young boy, not older than 22, cries for his friends and family. And it breaks Kyungsoo's heart.
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Ocean Blue || KaiSoo soulmate!AU
Fanfic*English is not my first language* [FINISHED] An ancient greek mythology says that human were originally brought to earth having four legs, four arms, two heads, two hearts and one soul. Zeus, seeing their power, decided to split the human into two...
