Rose

Chapter 4

I've been eluding that something very serious is soon to happen as I'm sure you can tell so here it is now that we are almost caught up to the present. The day that IT happened was a seemingly regular Friday in may of my junior year. I woke up at the regular 5:30 am. I hopped in the shower. For some reason, I felt the urge to "dress up" so I actually styled my hair and put on some cologne. I put on my workout gear and threw my nicer clothes in my gym bag along with my cologne. Imma takes it easy today, I thought to myself. I drove my truck to school, it was old and a little rusty but got the job done. The backfire from the exhaust had become a soothing sound to me. I was just happy to have my own car and not have to share with my parents like so many other high schoolers. As I got out the rush of fresh air was amazing. It was warm and smelled so good. The sun was beginning to rise and it was at the time when the light was golden and pretty. My favorite time of year since the mornings are so bright and sweet. Hiking to the field was easy it was over a little hill behind the school. North Carolina has a lot of hills. I trudged up the hill a little awkwardly because the rising sun was in my eyes from getting there later than usual ay 6:45 almost 7 but that's just when the school opened it actually started at 8. As I got closer to the top I felt it. Something was wrong. I had that gut feeling. feeling panicky I had the urge to run back down the hill and far away. But I also felt a pull to look over the top. Cringing a little I  made a slow advance to the top. I prayed I was wrong cause this situation felt wrong, but I had made this journey a hundred times so why was I even scared? I was sure my gut was wrong. But it wasn't no one's ever is. I reached the top my eyes closed. I slowly squinted them open. It took me a second to comprehend what I was seeing. I could see the entire field from this high up. All over the field was littered white roses. They were scattered over the entire field. It was beautiful. Thinking that maybe I was walking into the setup for a promposal (it was that season) I began to feel relief until I saw that there was something in the middle. I couldn't see very well of what it was but it was large and white. Still thinking about the promposal I debated turning around and leaving it be, but something didn't seem right. I squinted hard and leaned forward a little then I saw it, it was definitely a person . all it took was the glint of blonde hair for me to go sprinting at full speed down the hill. I wasn't sure but I had to find out. Was it her? Why was she lying in the middle of the field? Why was anyone laying in the middle of the field?! It wasn't right it was very very wrong. My head pounded with the panic adrenaline coursing through my veins. I sprinted faster than ever through the gate to the field and out onto the field. I slowed down when it came into view. It was definitely a body. A small one. My head was spinning as I realized there is no way this was going to turn out good. Early as it was with no one else there. This had a very ominous tone. Every nerve in my brain screamed at me to run away that I didn't want to see this, but my muscles pushed me forward. It was like there was a chain pulling me towards her. I crept closer until I could fully see the situation. It was rose, my rose. She lay on her back face to the sky eyes closed. She was laying with the white roses surrounding her small form outlining her entire body from head to toe. She wore a brilliantly white simple dress, but she was barefoot.  She had a hint of a smile on her lips. She looked younger than usual, maybe because she had no makeup on. her hair was like an angel halo around her head and running over the tops of flowers. Her hands were holding a bouquet of the white roses and I could see a card peeking out. Not thinking I bent down and pulled out the card. It was a completely mindless act my mind was paralyzed and my body had taken over. With shaky hands still kneeling next to her I opened the card and pulled out the note it was only one sentence but it was enough to send me into a panicked frenzy.

I didn't want to die an ugly death - Rose 

I dropped the letter and it flitted slowly to the ground. It was like slow motion all over again me screaming throwing off my gym bag. Leaning my ear to her mouth. She was still breathing. The tears beginning to stream down my face onto hers. Me frantically shaking her and screaming her name telling her to wake up. A foam began to form at the corner of her mouth. Overdose my mind screamed. I pulled her limp body onto my lap the roses fell from her hands. I sat her up in my lap her back against my chest. I had seen this in movies I had to make her throw up. I know what your thinking. " DUDE CALL THE FUCKING POLICE YOUR INCOMPETENT DUMBASS IS LETTING HER DIE" I know I know. But you don't really know how your gonna react, you can watch movies and say oh that dudes an idiot and I would do this he should do that. It's not that easy when you are thrown into a situation like this. a primal instinct begins to kick in and control you so you have no time to have better judgment, like a machine you act without thinking. So me being in the nonthinking haze of trauma,  I plunged my fingers down her throat. A loud gurgle sound came from her mouth I took this as a good sign, removed my fingers and used both my hands to hold her so she was sitting forward a little. She began to throw up all over the ground in front of me. When it stopped she was still unconscious but I held her to my chest sobbing into her hair telling her it was going to be ok even though she couldn't hear me until her body began to convulse again and she continued to puke. She finished and a moan escaped her lips. I immediately flipped her around a little so I could see her face. Her eyes were fluttering a little. She moaned again and her eyes opened slightly. I could tell she wasn't really seeing because they kept rolling back into her head. 

" ROSE, please stay with me" I cried " it's gonna be okay- " a sob broke my speech. "don't die on me please rose please please don't die." 

"Nnnn" she moaned and shifted a little in my arms. 

This brought me back to my senses and realizing I should probably actually save her life I looked around frantically for my bag with my phone. I located it within arms read and grabbed it. I fumbled with the zipper trying to open it too fast and retrieved my phone hitting the emergency call button. 

"911 what is your emergency?"