Rose

Chapter 5

I hate hospitals I really do. The smell is disgusting. I am a squeamish little bitch of a man can't stand blood or anything gore. So sitting in the tiny hall outside of roses room while they brang her back to life was not my ideal cup of tea. Hearing the various beeping and commotioninside her room did not exactly cure my panic attack. I was shaking uncontrollably. I felt on the verge of unconsciousness but kept myself to by telling myself that she was going to live. The emts had said that they were right on time and she would be completely fine. They praised me for forcing her to upchuck telling me i did it right and bought them much time. But i couldnt get it out of my head. What if she dies? I just watched someone fucking die! A shudder ran down my spine as the memory of her eyes rolling back in her head made a re appearance in my mind. Strangely when they got to the field i was still the only one at school it had only taken about 7 minutes for the emts to come rushing over the hill while i stroked roses face her head in my lap my tears falling on her face again. She was not awake but she was still breathing and i kept one hand placed firmly on her wrist feeling her pulse making sure it wasn't weakening. They rushed to me and two large men lifted her out of my arms and onto a stretcher. Another patted me on the back telling me they had to get to the ambulance as fast as possible and they had to go. For a moment i sat there in shock as they began their journey out of the field and over the hill pulling her farther away from me.

“NO” i cried rushing to my feet and throwing my bag over my shoulder “ i'm coming” i ran at them tears still streaming down my face. Within a few steps i caught up to the shoulder patting medic.

“ sir im sorry but immediate family- “

“ do you see her family here?!” i screamed hysterically “ i found her and i'll be damned if i go about me day not knowing if it turned out ok. If shes ok. do you think i can just return to school? Act like nothing happened no fuck no im as immediate as it gets.”
we had been walking during my tangent and we were now at the ambulance. A group of early arrived students began to gather near us taking out their putrid cell phones and FILMING. My stomach churned in pure rage and for the first time in the whole ordeal i felt the urge to vomit.
They finished hoisting the stretcher into the ambulance. Back patter stopped looked me up and down and sighed

“get in”

That was the longest drive of my life even though it was only about 5 minutes. Now here i was in a poorly lit hallway all alone. It had been an hour and a half and roses parents hadn't even showed up. Suspicious. a dark thought began to form in my mind but i pushed it out immediately. There no way. After two more hours of parental no shows and the slow dying down of the commotion and my panic attack a doctor stepped out of the room.

“ we haven't been able to get in contact with any parental figures “ he said slowly “ all the contacts on her phone were dead lines or blocked, an extremely frustrating situation. Are you her boyfriend?”

“ yes “ i said automatically, no idea why i lied.
“ ok well i usually wouldn't do this but since you are the only one here i can give you some information. Rose is awake she says she's 18 so i got her to sign a release of information form
for you caleb.

My eyes widened in joy “ she's awake?” i practically whispered to him.

“ yes given that the dose she took wasn't extremely high and she didn't have the drugs in her system for a long amount of time she was able to recover a little quicker than the usual overdoser.”

“ what did she take”

“ about 18 xanax”

“Xanax?” i said absentmindedly i had heard about this drug and knew it was usually associated with addicts

“ yes but thanks to you forcing her to vomit it wasn't in her system long enough to do any permanent damage she should make a full recovery” he paused a little smile forming at the
corners of his mouth “ would you like to see her?”

All i could do was nod vigorously at him.