Maddie's POV
"Ponggay, I love you." I said, my heart feels like it's going to explode for beating so fast.
You see, it's normal for us to exchange "I love yous" but we never talked about how deep that word means, how far it goes. How those three words mean a lot more than what we can say and show.
But tonight is different, I finally have to courage tell her what I really feel. Even if Bea and Deanna keeps telling me that I shouldn't worry about what Ponggay would say because they are sure she feels the same way, I can't help but worry. What I'm about to do can change everything between us, she might not feel the same or worse I'll lose her for good.
"I love you too, Maddie." And I know she's not getting it.
I took a deep breath and faced her, I caress her face.
"No, I'm in love with you. Like, love-love you. I know we're young and there are a lot of consequences but I'm willing to risk everything if it means being with you. Give me a chance to prove it to you, Ponggay. I'll do everything to make us work." She's smiling at me as tears fall from her eyes. I wiped it away, my hands are cupping her face.
"A-are you saying all these things because you're d-drunk?" She stuttered and I chuckled.
"I got the courage because I'm drunk but I'm saying all of these because it's the truth. I truly, madly, deeply, foolishly, and completely fell for you." We both giggled because I just quoted a lyrics from a One Direction song.
"I feel the same way, Maddie. You don't know how happy I am because I've been waiting for this day to come. I may be drunk but a drunk mind speaks the sober truth."
We both leaned closer, and I felt the entire zoo in my stomach the moment my lips collided against hers.
I feel like I'm in cloud nine. Na kahit na natalo kami sa La Salle feeling ko ay nag champion ako. I held on to her words.
But the next morning I woke up with a heartbreaking news.
"Maddie! Ponggay and I are finally together!" And Amy's happy demeanor is the exact opposite of what I feel.
Alam niyo yung feeling na ang taas na narating niyo tapos bigla kang gigising na ikaw nalang mag isa sa taas at bigla kang babagsak sa pinakababa.
I stared at Ponggay's eyes and she seem lost. But before I would breakdown in front of them and hurt myself even more, I turned around and told them I am happy for the two of them.
"A drunk mind speaks the sober truth."
But there's always an exemption to the rule, and ikaw yun Ponggay.
I don't know how I managed to make kwento about that, I'm a sobbing mess.
"Fuck." Bea said after I finished telling her what happened before.
"Words, Beatriz." Suway ni Jhoana. Nag sorry lang si Bea pero yung mukha niya hindi pa rin maipinta.
"Damn, I don't know what to say Mads." Sabi na naman ni Bea at nakurot siya kay Jho.
"Saan ka galing Maddie? Bago ka magpasundo kay Beatriz?"
I smiled bitterly nang maalala ko saan ako galing bago ko tawagan si Bea. Sakto kasama pala niya si Jho, yan tuloy may iba ng nakakaalam ng lahat. Pero okay lang, may tiwala naman ako kay Jho eh.
"Pinuntahan ko si Ponggay." Nakakainis kasi iyak pa din ako nang iyak. Akala ko wala ng mas sasakit pa sa naramdaman ko noon. Meron pa pala.
"Oh anong sabi niya?"
