"Waiting for delivery?" A doctor smiled at us and walked past.
"Rakim, we'll go back there with you" Khassidy rubbed my head.
I had my face buried in her stomach and rubbed on it. "It hurt my chest to go in there"
"I know it does, baby. We're one step behind you."
I got up, and pulled Khassidy and the baby up out of the chair.
I stayed one step behind her because I didn't want to be the first to go.
"Hiiii Rocky, Hiii Khassy" She talked slowly.
My six year old sister was laying in bed with an IV of morphine stuck up her arm and a bullet hole in her arm.
"Mom" I looked down at my phone and wiped at my eyes so that they wouldn't see the tears that were about to fall.
She looked at me with questioning eyes.
"After my child is born, I'm going back to jail. This shit gets me so fucking mad that I fucking cry. Fuck what Rich is doing about it, I want justice myself"
"Rocky nooo" Raven said. "Mommy not let you sawed me before. You leaved me all by myself"
"Rakim, I want you o-u-t out.I don't need anything else happening to any of mine. I can't control your father, but I can do my best with you."
I sighed. "Uh huh. I'm not trying to hear all that though"
"Why would you even leave Khassidy behind like that? You're throwing school away too? I guess you don't want to go to college anymore. I guess I should have just left you alone when I figured out that you wouldn't leave the streets alone" Myra said.
"Okay, but don't say that to me. You only want me if I'm doing good"
"No. I. Don't!" Myra stressed. "I love you regardless, I just wish that you made better decisions!"
"Mommy, my arm hurts worser" Raven complained, whining.
Khassidy grabbed my hand and gave it a hard squeeze. "Please don't leave, Rakim"
"Proooooomise" Raven dragged, adding to it.
I didn't know about all of that.
Rich came in with a bunch of gifts. "Where's my princess at?"
Raven laughed through the pain. "Daddy! You're here!"
He leaned down and gave her a kiss. "How you doing?"
"It hurts badly, but mommy said the doctor coming." Raven said. "I cannot moved it"
"You are such a big girl, Raven" He got in the bed with her.
He looked at me and nodded. We were going to have a looooong talk in a couple of hours.
"Khass, your hand is so sweaty" I pulled my now soaking wet hand away from hers and looked at her.
She was frozen like them nasty ass banquet dinners with the nasty ass brownies and suddenly started crying.
"Whoa, whoa" I stood up. "What's wrong with you?"
"My water broke, and I'm so scared now. I don't know about-"
