A Song Yet Unsung [POETRY]

The Journey untold of

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THE JOURNEY UNTOLD OF

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The poem below talks about a very sensitive issue. Move on to another chapter if you wouldn't be OK with the subject.

For far too long,
I've been a victim of people's
criticism and insecurities.

For far too long,
I've heard people talk
about how I walk,
talk and behave
pushing me to curl myself
in a shell not willing to come out.

Feeling I would be better of
locked away.
Feeling the world will be better
if I stayed away.

Or worse, sailed away
to the land of unfulfilled dreams.

"They don't want me here anyway."
I say to myself.

And so I've always
wanted to give up.
I've always wanted the pain
to go away.

so I looked for a way
to end it all.

Those who don't understand say:
"oh he's too weak",
"A guy should always be strong",

Forgetting not all were born the same.
Forgetting that how deep the mud is
depends on who you ask.

We all go through the same thing
differently.

"Who says a guy can't get hurt?"
I ask them.
But they get no answer for me.

Again,
that's one of society's standards
set to cage people.

Society's way of making sure
you never make a sound
when you are being choked
in silence by their own hands.

Do they know what it is like
to be in the state that I'm in?

When you feel
no one genuinely loves you.
They just use you as a pawn
to get what they need.

Or maybe I just make that up.
Maybe that's what I want to believe.
It might seem on the surface
that I demand too much
but that is not always the case.

Besides what could be wrong
in asking for a little attention?
When what everybody does
is treat you like you don't exist.

But I blame them not.
It's hard to find someone
who truly understands you.
Someone who wouldn't be
just like them.

If only they could understand me.
I wouldn't be forced to fight two battles.
A battle with society and
a battle with myself to find myself.

I feel I don't belong here.
Yet I couldn't end it
because even though they didn't care,
I cared too much about them
to leave them in sorrow.

I couldn't just leave them to
to wonder why I had left them so early.
Not knowing they pushed me
towards that dark path.

And so I embarked on a journey.
A journey of self discovery.
A journey to find myself
to accept myself and my love myself
even if they don't.

A journey that will prove my worth.
A journey that was supposed to
tell them that my slate could be wiped clean and that something good could come out of me.

©Alphawrites
28.05.2018

So this a poem I wrote for my birthday. Hope you enjoy it.