heartbreak hotel [reopened]

10:13 pm

i see you In the corner.
i see you crashing in on yourself as if and invisible force is suffocating you.

and yet you smile.

i never cared for you or even accepted you but seeing you slowly break and pathetically try to hide it makes me want to scream.

am i just seeing myself in you or maybe i just care too much about others.

your hurting yourself. I can see, I can tell.
But even though your life, your feelings, your beliefs are being twisted and deformed and your mind is reaping havoc on your heart people still just dont care.

they. don't. care.

and that's more annoying then you.

so when i see you hurting youself i wish i was able to help you. but I'm to selfish to even say hi.

so maybe im just as bad as the others who laugh and chastise your self pity.

but unlike them i can see beyond your persona that is so easy to hate, so maybe i'm a little worse.

so while i wallow in my thoughts you're there hidding your pain under your annoying voice and your loud habits and nobody helps.

so i guess we are stuck in a position that none of us will break. for the simple reason that

I. Cant. Stand. A. Single. Thing. About. You.

and you probably don't even know that. probably dont even know you did anything wrong.

you didnt.

but its easier to block you out when you obviously need help but i just hate you.

so good luck with your problems but my mind says i have enough of my own to be helping you.

so i'll leave you be and let you hide.

even though my heart says otherwise