heartbreak hotel [reopened]

9:48 pm

i'm drowning in white

a blank canvas
that i can't invade with color because all i can think about is you
but i can't
your beauty can't be recreated

it's not skin deep, it soars through your veins
you are set ablaze with it
sharing thst flame with anyone who lays eyes on you

but your light can't reach into my cave
i won't let it.
i̶ k̶n̶o̶w̶ i'm scared that i will make that light flicker
then diminish
i may be selfish
but i'm not a fool
seeing your beauty from afar-
seeing your face chiseled from marble and those eyes..
eyes that gods themselves brought alife with stars and moons.

seeing it afar is enough for my c̶r̶a̶v̶i̶n̶g̶
my selfishness to be quenched

so i'll keep my canvas blank for you
even when it drives me to insanity
even when it causes my own light, my own flame-
no matter how small-

to go out completly,
to become extinguished.