heartbreak hotel [reopened]

12:00 am

once I taste the blood that holds undying love for me my selfishness will shred all generosity in me.

I want them at my worst when I'm whitering inside my soul, when my tears are eroding my face into rivers and streams, and when my mind cracks open and I spill the truths about the lies I've told them but never do I see them with me at my best when I'm winning my battle with the minotaur and his damned maze.

I'm not a fighter that has a sidekick lover instead as I'm tearing the minotaurs grasp from me I'm standing side by side with two others whose talents rampage their souls like the wind tearing over the sea.

Even as they walk alongside me, powerful enough to make the gods bow down my demons are always eating at me spawning the desire to have a warm body and a soothing voice yet there is still a canyon that separates the me who longs for him and the other who withers away.

The desires and nessecities that rule over my heart and mind are always at each other's throats yet my morals always ally with my needs and they over power those warnings sending them shriveling back in whatever dark corner they clawed themselves out of.

The battles that guide this war, that might never end inside me has drastic outcomes that can never seem to be won with out consequences

if I were to say yes...

Say yes to loving you I know it wouldn't last. The minotaur's shadow that I carry behind me will put out your fire. Your light.

I am a minotaur. I always will be. I'll live with the battle. I'll survive the battle and I'll conquer the world with nothing but myself and the 2 who is made of mountains and storms.