Finding My Thug Love

Chapter 34

Bianca

Brook Has Been Acting Kinda Antisocial Lately.  I Wonder What's Wrong With Her.

"Brook What's Wrong" I Laid On Her Bed Next To Her While She Was On Her IPad. With The Dog At The Foot Of The Bed.

"Nothing" She Said Just Above  A Whisper. I Frowned

"Please Tell Me What's Wrong" I Took The IPad So That She Wouldn't Look Away From It.

"I Feel Unwanted.  "

"How?"

"Because Before Ana And Daddy Came Along Me And You Always Used To Hang Out And Go Places. Together. When It Was Only Me And You Not My Uncles And Stuff. You Remember. "I Nodded. " I Miss That. " She Was About To Cry.

"So You Don't Want Dre And Ana In The Picture Anymore" I Really Want Her Opinion. 

"I Do But I Want The Old You And Me. I Want To Hang Out With You And Auntie Monica " She Explained. "I Don't Want It All The Time Be Ana And Brook . I Want To Be Brooklyn And Bianca And Monica Again.  Or Only Us Two "

You Can Clearly Tell She Feels Neglected.  I Feel Terrible Now. I Feel Like A Bad Parent. I Took On To Many Responsibilities.  I Let My Only Real Responsibility Go. Brook Was Supposr To Be My Main Priority.  I Feel So Bad Now. I Don't Know How To Make This Up To Her.

I Went And Took On Two More Kids As My Own . But Neglecting My Own. I Need To Fix This.

"So How Can I Fix This Brooklyn" She Rubbed My Growing Belly.

" I Just Want Us To Talk Again . Hang Out Together And Stuff " She Continued To Rub My Belly.

"I Promise We Will. I Love You" She Hugged Me. Then Pecked My Lips Like Old Times. She Haven't Been Doing That Lately.

"I Love You Too" We Fell Asleep Right There Talking.

Terrance

I Been Kicking It With Jennifer For Like A Month Now . They Told Me What Went Down At Her House. She Been Through Way More Than I Thought.  I Feel Like I Need Her With Me. My Hoes Been Hitting Me Up But I Had To Pause All That. I Can't Hurt Her More Than She Been Hurt.

I Know Y'all Thinking How Can I Say That And I Fuck Everything Walking.  Well Because I Know A Female From A Hoe.  And I Believe Jennifer Isn't A Hoe.

One Thing I Hate Is When A Woman Is Abuse PHYSICALLY MENTALLY AND EMOTIONAL.  My Mom Was Abused All Three Ways. My Mom Used To Get Raped By Many Men A Night. While Her Boyfriend Got Paid For It. 

My Mom Was Illegal Here. Her Green Card Expired And She Didn't Have The Money. He Manipulated Her Into Thinking She Needed Him To Survive.  He Brain Washed Her And Belittled Her Every Single Day. He Beat Her Every Day. Then One Day He Beat Her Till She Died While I Watched . I Got A Kitchen Knife And Stabbed Him In The Neck While He Was Sleeping.

That Was When I Was 11 Years Old. 8 Years Ago. I Still Think About It Till This Day.  That Same Shit Could've Happened To Jennifer.  I Swear I'll Die Before I Let That Happen To Any Woman In My Life. Brook Ana Bianca Monica Or Jennifer Or Even Deborah.  I'll  Rather Have 19027 Bullets In Me On God.

I Don't Want To Be In A Relationship With Jennifer.  Because I'm Scared To Hurt Her. She Was Already Broken .

"What You Thinking About " She Rubbed My Head. I Had My Head In Her Lap While She Played With My Fade.

"Nothing Really" I Yarned.

"You Tired. " She Asked

"Not Really Hungry Yea" She Giggled.

"Nigga You Just Ate Like 25 Minutes Ago"

"I Know Usually When I'm At Bianca House We Eat Every 15 Minutes "

"I Think Imma Like It There" She Smiled.

"Yea Y'all Can Gossip About Us Guys. Ugh Wait Till You Meet Monica Ratchet Ass " She Giggled.

"I Heard Of Her"

"She So Ghetto But She Cool That's Taylor Girlfriend.  Y'all Might Meet On Christmas Or Something. "

"That'll Be Nice"

"Why Your Nail Polish Look Like That. " It Was Ugly And Colorful.

"Ana Begged Me To Do Them. I Kept It On So She Won't Trip" She Looked At Her Nails. "They Not That Bad. "

"I Guess "I Pulled Out My Phone Because It Vibrated.  Instagram Notification.

@ThatbitchBianca : Throw Back No Thursday.  Throwing Up Our Set In Your Hood. 

It Was A Picture Of All Of Us Doing The Gang Sign We Was Matching. Black Hustle Gang Hoodies Black Trues And Timberlands.

"You Guys Look Like Was Gone Shoot Up Something. " She Took The Phone. "You Guys Always Match "She Asked Handing Me The Phone.

"Yea Everytime We Go Out.  Since You Apart Of The Gang You Have To Do It Too "

"I Want To See Pictures. " I Went To Bianca Instagram Because She Upload Everything. I Handed Her Back The Phone.

"This Is Taylor" She Showed Me A Picture When Bianca Was On His Back.

"Yea"

"He's White. At Least I'm Not The Only White Person Among You Guys" I Chuckled. "Bianca And Dre Had Kids Young" She Commented

"Actually This Is Her First Child" She Looked At Me Dumb. "Brooklyn Is Her Little As Sister. Diana And Bryan Is Dre Kids."

"Why Is She  Raising Her Sister. "

"Her Mom Was On Drugs And Shit"

"Ooo I Get It . She Is Doing A Good Job" I Nodded In Agreement. " Sabrina Is Calling You"

"Let Me See"I Put The Phone On Speaker.

"What" I Answered

"Are You Going To Come To The Counseling"

"No I'm Not I Didn't Know Your Crazy Ass Was Married" I Hung Up.

"That Was Mean"

"That Bitch Crazy.  Let Me Tell You How I Met Her.  One Day I Was At Movico. And I Saw The Nigga That Bianca Was Talking To When Her And Dre Was Going Through It. Long Story Short He Was With Here She Gave Me Head Out The Boxer Hole. "

"So Why She Want You To Come To See A Counselor. ?" As She Questioned.

"Because I Fucked Her A Few Times And She Caught Feelings.  I Was Only Getting Back At Her Boyfriend For Bianca"

"You Guys Get Crazier And Crazier Everyday" Shs Laughed

"You Don't Know The Half Of It. II'm Surprise Dre Let Me Near You "

"What You Mean"

"Cause I Don't Have The Best Relationship With Girls " I Shrugged.

"You A Man Whore " She Slapped My Forehead.

"Joseline You Better Stop Before I Send You Back To The Strip Club" I Jocked.

"Stebbie You Would Never Send Ke Back There Cause I'm Not Going Back " She Tried To Sound Like Her.

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SHORT

UPDATE

JENNIFER ?

BROOK FEEL UNWANTED

SHOULD I LET TERRANCE GO TO COUNSELING ?

VOTE

COMMENTS

SUGGESTIONS