Real Love

What Just Happened? (Phana)

       

I miss him.

It's crazy how much I miss him right now. Two days.  That's how long I've had him and I feel empty without him right now.  I can't imagine that I would love the real Yo any more than I do this Yo.  He's funny and smart.  He's passionate and so honest.

It's been like a whirlwind, him just showing up like that.  I didn't want to go back to work today but I'd already skipped two days of work.  The staff acted like I was dying when I showed up today.  One day off was unheard of, two days meant a catastrophe.  Now tack on that I added a short notice week off and they were checking me for needle marks and strange new tattoos.

Today is a catch up day. I'll be having a lot of those when I get back from my break. I assume they have a special formula at scheduling to make up for this. I'm pretty confident I'll be working late for the next couple of weeks.  I'm not looking forward to that.

I actually made it through my morning surgeries without any issues. The surgeries I missed Wednesday were rescheduled for this afternoon so I will be all caught up on that front. I opted to keep the surgeries for next week though.  Those shouldn't be messed with.  I only do surgeries twice a week so it won't be that bad.

I get out of my scrubs, shower, and change.  I head to my office to make sure I have everything I need to apply for the marriage license.  I feel relieved when everything I need is here in my hands.  Everything except for Yo.

This waiting is driving me crazy.  I can't believe how slowly time is moving.  It's like it's trying to tick me off. Every time I look at the clock it mockingly blinks at me like its enjoying my frustration.

A soft knock on the door and in walks the person that I was thinking about.  He looks a little unsettled so I immediately make my way to him and envelop him into my arms.  He hugs me back burying his face in my chest.  He inhales deeply causing me to smile.

"I missed you." He breathes out.

"I missed you too," I tell him honestly.

"Any luck on the job search?" I ask.

"Really today was all about researching. Since I don't drive I had to come up with places that were either close to the hospital or close to the apartment." He says.

"Not close to the apartment. We'll be moving after we get married." I tell him.

"We will? Why?" He asks.

"Because, right now we live at my place. After we get married we'll live at our place. I'll give you the address so you can look around there." I explain.

"Address? You already have an address?"

"Well, yeah I already bought it, I was just waiting for you so we could move in. It was supposed to be your wedding present but when you brought up this thing with the job I thought you should know." I admit.

"I understand. When can we go look at it?" He asks with a smile.

"Any time you want. Except for today, we already have plans.  You ready to go get that license?" I ask holding my hand out to him.

He looks at it like it's an alien being then up to my face.

"Something wrong?" I ask.

"P'Pha.  We're in the hospital.  We can't act like this here.  It's inappropriate." He scolds.

"So it's not that you don't want to..." I lead.

"No it's not that.  I love holding your hand just not where it can get you into trouble." He states.