Olivia

Prologue

"I'm sorry Olivia. I'm dying. I don't have very long left."

My heart sank at his words. It felt like someone forced my mouth open and shoved a hot iron rod down my throat. All the things I wanted to say to him all got twisted together, and all that was left for me to do was cry.

"N-no. You can't die. You can't leave me alone." I sobbed.

The tears flowed from both of our eyes in disbelief. He's too young to die, 17 is too young to die.

"I'm sorry Olivia. I love you so much. Please never forget that." He said letting cold tears fall from his ocean blue eyes.

"I love you too, Toby." I say back.

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That was the night that changed everything for me. It essentially ruined my life. Me and Toby had it all planned out. We were going to go to college in New York together, rent a small apartment that allows pets, get married at 21, and have children before we turned 25. It was perfect, and now it's crumbled.

I don't blame him for what happened. I know it's not his fault. I oftentimes wonder if it's because of me, is it something that I did?

On June 8th 2015, I lost the love of my life to cancer. The cancer was in his arm one minute and the next it was spreading throughout his body like a wildfire slowly rotting everything in his body.

I remember the day he died so vividly. No matter how hard I tried to get the image out of my mind, I never could.

I was visiting him in the hospital on a  Monday afternoon. I had just gotten out of school, and I was missing the one who held my heart.

My feet padded against the hospital floor, and my nose filled with the smell of latex gloves. Toby was in the cancer center in the middle of the building.

"Hi baby." I greeted with a fake smile plastered on my face. I don't want him to know I'm weak. I need to be brave for him.

"Hello Princess." He croaked.

"How are you feeling?" I asked.

"I'm feeling better lovely." He smiled.

"That's great news." I exclaim.

I strut over to him, and plop myself into the bed. He tucks his arm around me, and pulls me close to his chest. He strokes my hair. I feel my eyes flutter, and as I'm falling asleep I feel him kiss my head and whisper into my ear. "I love you princess."

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He died in his sleep about an hour later. Maybe if I didn't fall asleep I could've called the Nurse to save him, but I'm no hero, I'm just a princess waiting for somebody to save me.

That was the day I decided to never let anyone back into my heart.