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present time
benjamin and i have finsihed five bottles of beer and i am feeling a bit dizzy. while this guy, is already drunk. goodness, he should thank me the next day he's drinking with me.
"one more glass, please." he says in a loud voice and i hushed him. "benjamin, no. you're drunk na," i reply and drink the last glass. he laughs, "me? drank? no! wait, was it drank or drunk?"
i slap my forehead. this guy, really.
i stand up from my seat and wrap my arm on his waist and out his arm around my shoulders to assist him on walking. "ugh, benjamin. you're so heavy, you thin but tall human being." i demand, groaning. gladly i can carry heavy things, like this guy, since i play volleyball.
i let out a relieved sigh when we reached his room, it took me more than five minutes to reach his room. he's so kulit, eh. hay nako next time i won't drink with this guy ever again!
i lay him down on his bed. i sit on the edge, watching him sleep silently. i let out a breath as i grab my phone from my shorts' back pocket. i texted my brother that i'm staying the night here; can't leave this guy wasted, and besides, it's past midnight.
i head to his closet to get him a new shirt. he doesn't have much shirts, not like my brothers lol. i grabbed the white tshirt and the orange one, i guess he won't get mad at me if i borrowed one of his shirt.
i went back to benjamin to change his clothes. "cooperate with me, please." i whisper hoping that he hears it. i removed his shirt and i flush.
no doubt, he has a good body. he's hot holy shit.
i roll my eyes at my thought, i wore him the white tshirt. i carefully push him on the left side of the bed so i have space. i sit up on the bed first to change my shirts, then i kick off my shorts before laying down.
i turn off the dim lights then i felt an arm around my waist, i look over my shoulder to see benjamin. "what?" i ask in a low voice but he didn't respond for a few seconds.
"isabele," he whispers, pulling me closer to him. i was quite surprised when he said his ex-girlfriend's name, wow, he really thought i'm isabele?
he snuggles his face closer to my neck, "i love you." i felt my heart ripped off to pieces and a tear fell from my eye. all this time, he didn't mean those words when he says it to me. he thought i'm his ex-girlfriend, but i'm far different from her.
i covered my mouth to prevent loud sobs. i gasp for breath before asking him one question. "do you still?" i ask and he smiled. he smiled.
he brushes my hair with his fingers, "ofcourse, isabele, i still do. i always will," i start to have a hard time to breath properly. my name is eva victoria, not isabele. why do you keep doing this to me, benjamin?
i cried, so bad, until i fell asleep.
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the next day, i wake up very early with a throbbing headache. sigh, i don't really care about the pain in my head. i care about the pain in my chest. everything still feel new to me.
i grab my phone at the sidetable to check the time. 8:28 am. so early for someone who's drunk and cried her eyes out for two hours straight. but i guess it's a great time to wake up, though, if i don't want benjamin to wake up first before me.
i look at my left to see him sleeping, safe and sound. everything he said last night flashed back in my head. i shut my eyes close and shake my head, stop hurting yourself, eva.
quickly, i wore my shorts and head to the bathroom to do my routine and change to the shirt i am wearing last night. i scan his study table to find a piece of paper and a pen. i let out a deep breath before writing him a note before i leave. i guess i need to tell everything now before it's too late.
once i'm done, i place it down on his sidetable and leave his room. then, donny spotted me. "hey, ev– wait, why are your eyes puffy?" he squints his eyes and i flush, looking away.
"it's nothing, kuya dons! maybe because puyat lang. that's all," i say quickly that made him look at me suspiciously. he didn't force me to tell the truth, though, so he just shrug and invite me for breakfast.
i quickly finish my breakfast and bid goodbye to them. "you're leaving agad? why won't you wait for benj to wake up?" tita maricel asks and i just smiled, "no, thanks, tita. i left benjamin a note naman po."
she just nod and bids a 'take care' before i left their house.
in six months of fake-dating benjamin, i somehow felt what love feels like. it's scary that sometimes you'll think twice if you will risk or not. but in this kind of battle, we always let our heart decide which was wrong because it should be balanced; we should follow both what our mind and heart says. and what they both said to me last night is give up, because wala naman akong pararatingan.
pasensya ka na sa mga kathang-isip kong ito, benhamino.
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ooh this chapter is quite heartbreaking for me
i feel what eva currently feels right now. my mind and heart says
i should give up kasi wala namang pararatnan itong lahat pero i'm a
strong independent woman na medyo marupok minsan so i won't give up. i'll wait, patiently, for the right time.
naks what did i say ba don
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