benjamin
when i arrived at her house, luke gave me an envelope and shut the gate close infront of me. i opened the envelope and unfold the paper inside.
To my dearest Benjamin,
Hi. When you read this, I'm obviously not with my brothers–I am no longer existing. :) If you've read the letter I wrote to you before I left, you surely now know the reason why I'm gone. I only knew I have cancer two months ago and I'm on stgae 3 already that time. The day after I left, I took few lab tests on the hospital and I was on the end stage based on the results. We've tried everything but it just make everything worse.
They say that life is a special gift God lent to us and someday, we'll give it back to him. And that someday for mine, is now. Maybe this is my fate, I accept it though. I hope you will, too.
Now's the time to do the drama I've never done infront of you: I just want to say I'm sorry and Thank You.
I'm sorry; for being the worst bitch you've ever met and you ever will encounter, for being so maldita for no reason at all, for not obeying your rules kaya you always get mad at me, and for breaking one of our rules: falling in love with you. We both know it's impossible that we wouldn't like one of us, like hello, don't you even have a heart? 'Cause even though I'm the baddest bitch, I still fell inlove like the other marupoks out there.
Falling in love wasn't easy; you'd think twice if you would risk or not. But I learned ghat love is a gamble; you wouldn't know what happen if you won't take the risk. And there are just two choices: you'd either win or lose in this game. I guess, I didn't lose at all.
Most of us would say love is a feeling but no– love is a choice. You, you chose to love that someone. You chose to love them even on the ugliest days. You chose to love them and stay even though you can't see the stars in their eyes. If you say love is a feeling, then dear– you're only infatuated with me.
Thank you; for staying with me, for making me feel loved, for being the shoulder I can cry on, for being the Romeo to my Juliet, for taking me to Meet You There Tour of 5SOS (that was the best I LOVE YOU), for being the sweetest, the most clingy, most thoughtful and kindest boyfriend I've had, & thank you for simply being you, Benjamin Ryan Laxa Pangilinan.
Oh, and also, sorry for making you worry about me again. I broke a promise, I told you I sick at promises, Mr. Pangilinan ;)
Alright, I'm ending this farewell shitty letter. Goodbye– I mean, see you soon, amour. Until we meet again after a matter of time :) And no joke, I love you so much. I do. I always do. ❤️
Your ONLY girlfriend,
Eva Victoria .x
— ☁️ —
i suck at endings okeh i know it sucks shut up
anyway wOOOW FINALLY IT'S DONE I'M TEARING UP
thank you so, so much for everyone who where there since the
start of the story, and for everyone who where there since i started
writing stories. thank you for the never ending support, i love you all so much y'all are an angel :)
and maybe now it's the end of my wattpad career 🙂 i'm gonna focus
on writing my very first twitter serye!! yeS YOU READ IT RIGHT I'M
HAVING A TWITTER SERYE IT IS NOT A DRILL OK
i'm making seryes with some of my bunch of friends' help, aye and alleah. we're posting the first part today!! watch out for 'I Don't Wanna Love You Anymore' on twitter. make sure to follow @/pngseryes on twt
'cause that's where we're gonna write the serye.
and now lowkeybenj is finally, signing out. x
(no promises that i'll be gone forever because..
i suck at promises!!)
