The Nerd & The Ice Queen (Tousaki Highschool AU)

Chapter 25.2 - His Name is... (Part 2)

"His name is... Kaneki Ken."

Touka stares at Sasaki then She says, "Hey, can I give some advice?".

While Sasaki rest his head on her shoulder and embraces her, He gives her a nod.

"Haise, I think you should talk to him. You see..even it's painful to you, you can't run away for the rest of your life. Like me, I tried to run away from my pain by attempted suicide but because you were always be there beside me, finally I can forgive myself and now I have a reason to live. That guy, I mean Kaneki-san, even his personality had changed He is still Kaneki-san."

Hearing it, Sasaki's eyes widened and He bites his lower lips a bit.

"He hates me.", says Sasaki.

Touka gives him a gentle touch on his face.

K.T : Hate? Why do you sure that He hates you?
S.H : I abandon him, Touka.
K.T : ...In my opinion, He doesn't hate you at all, Haise. He just sad that you won't accept the way He is. If you want to fix this problem, why don't you meet him and told your feelings to him? Ah, also..I want to give some advice to Kaneki-san too  but I think I can't tell him directly since I don't know him well but..please tell him this. 'Don't hate yourself, even you have changed..you are you. I'm sure there are someone who cherish him and want to accept him just the way he is.'

Soon after Touka says it, Sasaki hugs Touka tightly.
Touka patted his head meanwhile Sasaki tries to hide his tears from her.

K.T : Now, shall we go to hospital first?
S.H : ....For what?
K.T : Your hand! Jeez~ We need to see the doctor!
S.H : Oh  yeah, you are right! Err..Touka?
K.T : Hmm?

Sasaki caressed Touka's cheek and press his lips into her.

S.H : Thank you.
K.T : .... *blush* Y-You are welcome. N-Now let's go.

They go to the hospital and after Sasaki got the treatment Touka buys some lunch and take it to Sasaki's house.
During the lunch, Touka observed Sasaki who tried to grab the rice with the chopstick but it keep failing.
Touka put her chopsticks and takes his, She grab the rice with it and feed him.

"T-Thanks.", said him as blushing.

While chewing his food, Touka asked him something.

"Haise, should I sleep over here?"

Sasaki startled and choked, He can't stop coughing till He drank the water in his glass.

S.H : W-W-What's all of sudden? (Touka..sleep here? Just two of us?!?)
K.T : Since you can't feed yourself. How can you feed yourself?
S.H : Uh..T-That's! I-I will buy a spoon later!
K.T : ...Are you sure?
S.H : Yup! (Calm down, Haise!)  

Sasaki nodded his head while He is blushing hardly then Touka patted his head.

"Haise, if you need something..please feel free to ask me. It's okay to rely on me..since I will stay by your side."

While feeling the warmth that She gives to him, Sasaki closes his eyes and smiles.
Touka heads back to her house at the evening.
Sasaki insists to accompany her but She rejects his offer, She told him to get some rest instead worrying about her.
After Touka left his house, Sasaki went to the convenient store near his house to buy some spoon and that night, He asleep earlier more than usual and He has a dream.

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Ha-i-se..what's that about?
Your friend? Why are you referring me as your friend?
You know that-

"I know that..you are me, my true self.
Sasaki Haise is my other name and my true name is Kaneki Ken."

So you admit it but why are you hiding it from Touka?
If She knows that you are lying, She will hate you~

"I..am not ready yet, but someday I will tell her about you for sure."

You are full of lies, Haise. I'm sure you will run away again.

"I won't. She is right, all what I've done is running away from you.
But this time..I want to face it, I don't want to run away anymore!
...This is maybe awkward since I talk to my other self but..I'm sorry."

Huh?

"I'm sorry for denying your existence. I'm sorry for rejecting you.
I'm sorry for abandoning you and..I'm sorry for hating you."

..W-What the hell are you saying?! I didn't ask for your apologize!?!

"Then why are you crying?"

The white haired boy touched his cheek and He can feels the warm tears flowing from his eyes.

..Eh? What's this? Ugh..it won't stop.

Without saying anything, Sasaki approached the white haired boy and hugs him.

"The reason you keep appearing is not to take control of my body,
but it's to make me acknowledge about you and
ensure me to not forget about you, my other self, right?

...You always reject me. I..just want you to accept the way I am.
You looks so happy with your new identity,
I'm afraid that one day..you will forget about me.
Kaneki Ken..who lonely and afraid to be hated by everyone.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..but from now on I want to accept myself 
that I'm Sasaki Haise and I'm Kaneki Ken too.
Two name, the same person."

*sob* You jerk.

"Then it means you are a jerk too. :)"

...By the way, Haise. One day, can I borrow your body?

*What for?"

*blush* I want to do something for Touka. Hehehe.

"Wha-! Don't you dare do something weird to her!!"

What are you thinking about?
I just want to thank her. ...Haise, you-

*blush* "Gah! Shut up, pervert!!"

If I am a pervert then it means you are a pervert too :)

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On the next afternoon, Touka go to Sasaki's house to eat lunch together.
She pressed the doorbell for several times then Sasaki opened it.

K.T : Good after- Uh..you didn't sleep well?
S.H : ...I met Kaneki last night.
K.T : Already? Did you guys make up?
S.H : Half-half.
K.T : ? What it does mean?

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