when the day met the night; spam book

two; camisado

it feels good to have a spam book again lmao. is that weird?
anyways, today has not been a very good day for me. i had to run the mile today which sucks because it was hot outside and i hate running. i am not happy with my time, and because i did not pass standard, i have to rerun again next week.

i walked home afterwords, (i have gym last period of the day) and i was hungry because i hadn't eaten since that morning. so i was tryng to find food but we literally have nothing to eat. then my mom calls me picky. i also hurt my leg while running so it hurt to walk.
then i ended up eating one of those fruit cup thingies and i threw it away and then my mom yelled at me because it still had water in it. then i started crying and kept apologizing because at this point i felt like i literally couldn't do anything right, and my mom got really mad at me and told me to go to my room.

during this my dad is not home at all which i would have preferred him to be because he started working for his old job again and i never get to see him when he works that job so i'm already upset about that.

i go to my room and i was mad so i started punching my bed. my right hand bruised immediately, so i decided to stop and play my ukelele instead because it's something i've been trying to do more often instead of punching things and being destructive.

i don't come out of my room until dinner, and i didn't get any homework done.

my dad is finally home. he asks me what happened to my hand. i told him someone accidentally pushed me into the wall and i hit my hand really hard at school. he believed me.

then i ate dinner and went back to my room feeling a little bit better now that my dad was home.

i'm still pretty upset though. i'm not excited to run the mile again.

at least there's only four more weeks of hell though, right?

5/16/18

sike bitch i left home sick the day they were rerunning so i never had to rerun
also school has been over since the 18th and today is 6/21/18
btw my hand is still bruised
anyways i forgot to update this so i will now

bye