Loyalty

8 teen

Starr P.O.V -

This past month has been nothing but hell. My father and I don't speak and if we do we at each other's necks. whats has been going behind these closed doors is another story. This can't be happening. I never cried so hard on my shay. All I kept saying was "I don't want the baby" I wanted to scream, I kept pinching myself thinking that I would wake up from my biggest nightmare. "Starr! Snap out of it! STOP!" Shay shouted I took a deep breath and just streams of tears fell my eyes. Shay was speechless. she just rubbed my back "Come on let me take you to go get some fresh air, wanna see Quan ? he's been asking about you .. along with the rest of the family" Shay says 

I wipe my tears and nodded my head. "Your the only one that knows... Let's keep it that way" I covered up my bags with light makeup.  

"Starr.. you can't hide this forever. The truth is going to come out sooner or later" Shay says as we walk to the car 

"How about let's not talk about it?" I ask 

"I'm just saying starr, you going to be showing in a couple of months.. " she continues 

"who said I was keeping the baby shay? hmm ? Not I ? Hmm ?" I snap 

"God said you keeping the motherfucking baby I know you don't like the circumstances under which it was made but God created all things for a reason you keeping that damn baby and I know you going through a lot but you better watch who you fucking snapping at," Shay states no words were exchanged after that. I didn't know how to feel. She was right but I can't face the truth that my baby is the outcome of me being raped. 

What would everybody else say starr is the child of pastor brook and I know they will judge a book by it's cover not knowing the full story. We pulled up at Quans house and immediately my heart drops.  Shay looks at me after she puts the car in park.

 "You okay?" she ask 

I nodded "Let's get this over with," I say getting out of the car 

The last time ive seen him face to face was when my dad snatched me up. I'd call him every now n then to check on him. Send him a few thinking of you text. Its just been so long since I seen his fine ass I hope he still looks at me the same. I hope after I tell him he will still view me the same

I walked towards the door with shay by my side. I hugged myself, shay knocked on the door. The door swung open. It was shawn quite ass, he ain't even say hey he just nodded as always.

"Hello to you too where quan?" shay asked 

Shawn opened the door allowing us to come in.  Quan came downstairs with a smile on his face the same look he'd always look at me. I got timid all of the sudden like the first time I saw him. I half smiled "Damn ain't happy to see my ass, where that smile?" he asked Slowly but surely the smile came "there it is, I missed you girl" he says reaching in for a hug, I flinched my arms were still folded. He backed up "You good, you cold? I can turn off the AC -"

"no, It's fine -" I stared blankly I didn't want to tell him, not yet.. too soon. "I should go," I say walking towards the door 

"Star stop" Quan grabbed my arm I flinched again  

*FlashBack* 

Since the whole incident, My mom has been out working more. The shop has been keeping her busy, My brother has been with friends making memories before school leads out. Me , I've been home with my dad who starts drinking and we get to arguing. All night. Each night got worst but this one. Left scars. mentally and physically. 

"Don't wanna hear another word come out of your mouth starr!" dad shouted 

"How many sorry's is it going to take, You never cared about me! only about your fucking reputation!" I shout back