Saving Her

14. Need To See Her

     "So how would you like to decorate the church?" Ms Zetch, my funeral planner asks me.
     "W-with lots of m-memories." I say as I stumble my words. I can't believe Josephine's actually dead. Her death was all over the news, and still is. I can't go on my phone without seeing a picture of her dead body. I've gotten into some bad habits too, I started smoking, and I drink a lot, and I mean a lot. I know I shouldn't but I just can't stop, not until I see my daughter again, not until I see Josephine again. I've also stopped eating regularly, I just can't, everything I do reminds me of her, and that includes eating. I've lost about fifty some pounds, yea I know, it's bad. My husband Jacob is really worried about Me, everyone is. They try to help me, and I try to stop, stop all of these bad habits, I really have, but I need Josephine. I need to see my daughter, and it a the only thing that will make me stop, seeing Josephine is the only thing that will make me happy, and not the fake happy like when the weekend comes, I mean the real happy, like how you feel on your wedding day, or Christmas, and until that day comes, my life will be a living heck.