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Lisa's Therapy 1

Lisa gets up and leans on me as we walk toward the desk.

Katherine's POV

Lisa sits down and stares at the floor, fidgeting nervously.

"Ok. Lisa, tell me what's going on with you."

Lisa shrugs and continues to have a staring contest with the floor.

Christina gently rubs Lisa's back as I encourage her to talk.

"I'm fine."

Lisa whispers, and the therapist gives a face of disbelief.

"Are you now?"

"Ye-yeah... I'm fine. Please..."

Lisa looks like she wants to break down and Christina takes Lisa to the side as the therapist begins reading some computer files, occasionally glancing at Lisa and Christina.

Christina's POV

Most parents would ask me why I, out of all people would take my kid to the side when my wife could just talk to her. To that I respond, you don't know Lisa. Lisa is nonverbal when she is nervous. She is nonverbal most of the time so, being able to communicate without talking is like a godsend for her.

Hey, you need to talk to the therapist.

I... I know. But... It's hard.

I know it's hard but, it will only be 15-20 minutes maybe a little more.

She bites her lip and doesn't respond.

Please?

Yeah. I'll go. I don't want to tell her everything though. Not yet.

You don't have to. We just need to get a start.

Lisa nods and sits back down.

"Are you ready now Lisa?"

"Y-yeah."

"OK. Let's start this over, now, Lisa tell me what's going on with you."

"Y-you know this b-but I have depression... It came from school but... then Mom and Mother decided to homeschool me. It got better for a while then... Then..."

She chokes up and tears begin falling down her face.

"Hey, hey, your Ok, it's Ok."

The therapist watches as Katherine reassures Lisa.

"S-s-sorry"

"You don't need to apologize for having feelings, Lisa. It's Ok to have feelings."

"Then... I started feeling worthless. I started feeling fat... I am useless. I am a waste. The voices wouldn't go away. They just kept pounding. Pounding. Pounding... I couldn't find a reason to get out of bed. I couldn't wake up from the fog... I felt like a burden... I felt invisible... I felt like I didn't matter but... but then... the fog lifted and I got better... but... it came back and the voices are getting louder and Louder... Telling me to go kill myself... Telling me that they were right... Telling me... Telling me that I was the most useless, worthless, waste of resources that ever existed... And I can't... I can't... Get out of it..."

"Who is they?"

"I-I-I... I'm a burden... I can't tell you... They... They... "

I walk over and comfort Katherine who is crying and Lisa is in a state of shock.

Lisa begins hyperventilating as more tears flow down her face and I quickly lead her out of the room as the therapist hands Katherine a tissue to wipe her tears.

I don't say anything and just lean against the wall, sit down, and let Lisa cuddle into my chest. I stroke her hair gently and rock her back and forth.

I hum quietly as Lisa's breathing slows down but, I can feel her shaking in my arms.

I can hum and whistle but, I can't talk. I am dreading my therapy session. It took me a while to open up to Katherine and that was before he happened. I don't know if I can do this. I have to be strong for everyone though. I need to be strong.

"Dani is going next... Is Lisa Ok?"

I nod.

Everything is fine. Does Dani want anyone there?

"She doesn't want anyone there and Lauren wants you there and she wants me to take care of the other girls because 'she doesn't want to be selfish and take both of our attention from everyone else'. She want's you there because you are the one to help her with most of her nightmares because... because you don't sleep much..."

Sorry... I try to sleep I just can't... The memories and anxiety...

"It's Ok... I just wish that that didn't happen to us..."

If it hadn't... we might not have been where we are now and Lisa and Lauren might still be in that house... And Amy and Lauren might have still been in the orphanage and... we may not have stayed together.

"I know... But still...:"

I nod and continue to comfort Lisa. I hope Dani's therapy session goes well.

I might be able to start updating every day!!!
Be excited.

Most people don't update every day because... They have a life... but... Just... Oh just... Be quiet.

I originally wasn't going to update... Then I felt guilty for not updating today because I normally do... Then I thought about how I updated yesterday... then I thought that everyone would hate me for not updating today... and my anxiety started stressing me out... soooooo...

I need help. So much help...

K, Bye