This Boy Im With

chapter25: More confessions

        "Riley, now that we are doing all this confession thing, can we talk?"  This can't be good. We walk to the backyard and sit on the grass.

   I look at Blake and he looks like he is trying to think of a way of saying what he is about to say. Then he finally turns to me.

   "Ok....so you are probably going to be pissed when I say this. Maybe not to pissed cause its not that big of a deal."

  "Get to the point." I grow impatient by the minute. He takes a deep breath, let's it out again and then looks back at me.

    "Iliedtoyouaboutmylifestory." He says it so fast that I swear I heard soemthing about him moving to Chicago or some shit.

        "What? Blake just speak normal." He takes another deep breath before speaking.

    "I lied to you about my life story." He can't be fucking about this.

           "This is no time to play with me, Blake, this is serious. You lied about your life?" I stand up and so does he.

   

     "Look hear me out, okay, let me explain." I nod slowly and wait for him to speak.

    "So what I said about my mom being dead....its a lie, my actual mom is Karen. And as for Christian...he is my brother not step." I don't even know what to say. How could someone be so selfish and self-centered to lie about something like this?

  "Why?" Is all I can think of saying.

  " I don't really know."

         "You may not know, but I do. You wanna know why, Blake?" I say and he shrugs. "Because you can't trust me. If you did, you would have never had to lie. Gosh, you're such a fake." I am about to walk away when he places a hand on my shoulder.

  

            "Do you wanna know about Caroline?" He asks. I nod and he sits down on the grass once again. He pats the spot next to him and I sit.

  "Riley, Caroline is Ariana's sister. I used to 'date' her....and Ariana." Now that he mentioned Ariana she was telling the truth about him trusting girls and doing it with Caroline. She wasn't lying or saying it so that I can leave Blake, she was helping me out so I won't have a broken heart. I think that's the case. "But the thing is that when I was dating Ariana, I was sleeping with her sister." I feel tears falling down my cheek.

  "What kind of monster are you?" I turn to him. The fact that someone has the guts to date a girl and then get with her sister, is sick as shit.

        "I know I screwed up, big time.  But listen to what im saying, ok?" I nod and he starts talking again. "So when Ariana, find out about it she through a fit. She forgave me though, she said everyone deserves a second chance. But....she said if I stop with her sister she will forget that it happened and moved on. So I promised her just that but I didn't mean it. I loved Ariana, but Caroline she was a good person, great personality, and great in bed. So one day when I was really high on alcohol I went to their house, Caroline always leaves the window open for me, so when I went in to her room I found her with another guy. I don't know why I got so pissed that I knocked out the guy with one punch and Caroline kept screaming, so to keep her quite .... I h-had to s-slap her."

OH

MY

GOD

     "Please tell me you didn't. You wouldn't." when he stays quite I knew he was staying the truth. "What kind out guy hits a girl?!" I raise my voice. 

     "I know what I did was wrong. Really wrong, but I was drunk I didn't know what I was doing. And I never felt so guilty before." He has tears in his eyes already but he continues. "So I hit her so hard that she knocked out and hit the floor face first. Her mom heard when she fell so she came running in and when she saw me, she started yelling and going crazy. She called the ambulance and took her to the hospital. They said she was really lucky that she survived, but she was in a coma. Caroline's mom was terrified and Ariana was just really mad and not that worried about Caroline. So we talked....she said that this time I won't get away with it so easily so she said I can't keep in touch with her when she wakes up and that I need to leave her right in front of her. So....about 2 weeks, she decided to go clubbing. We went together and some bimbo came up to her and started kissing her in front of me. I couldn't take it so I left instead of beating the shit out of him. The next morning when I woke up, I called her, and dumped her. She came to my place crying cause I did something so much worse and she forgave me not once but twice. I said I didn't give two shits so I slammed the door in her face and never saw her again. She moved schools. Then after a while so did I cause that school had way to many memories. And then that's when I saw her in class and that's when it all started."

  

   By now I was in full tears and Blake only had a tear or two falling down his cheek. "How could you be so fucking selfish and not forgive her. You slept with her sister, made a promise that you would leave her which was a lie, and put her in the hospital. Then when she just kisses someone you break up with her, through the phone. Your sick." I get up and make my way Inside.

 

   "Riley! Come on, we aren't finished!" he yells after me. I stop when I get to the living room and turn around. "What are you thinking?"

  "Honestly, I don't know." I sight and look over to the couch to see Olivia and Tyler listing  and looking at us.

  "What do you want to do?" he looks down to his shoes and tucks his hands in his  jean pockets.

          "I need time. Time to process all this. I need....space. " I let another tear fall. His eyes water up again but he doesn't let anything out.

      "Space. Ok I'll give you that. How long?"

             "I don't know. Its been a long day. I just found out that I have a brother and that its my best friend, Tyler, and now, now this with your lies and its to much. Im not breaking up with you, but I just need some space, that means don't text me or call me or come over. Okay?" He nods and that's when a single tear falls on either side of his cheek. This has been a hell of a day.

      "When your done with space, come find me." And with that hes out the door. I run up to my room and thats when I have a total break down.

       "Riley, can I come in?" Olivia knocks on the door.

            "Yeah, come in." I wipe my face with a tissue and Olivia walks in.

       

     "Don't get mad, Ty and I eavesdropped and heard what happened." She sits down next to me and pulls me into an embrace.

          "It's horrible. He lied. He hit a girl. Got high. Slept with his girlfriends step sister. He's a monster. I don't even know who he is." I pull away. She has a few tears in her eyes.

     "It's ok. I will be fine." She assures me.

           

      "NO! EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THAT IT WILL BE OK, THAT IT WILL BE FINE! BUT ITS NOT! THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT PAIN FEELS LIKE! THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT LOSING SOMEONE FEELS LIKE! THEY DONT KNOW ANYTHING!" I yell and start crying like crazy. She looks at me speechless with loss of words.

     "Riley, I know that people always say that,  I agree, but when they don't know what to say, they have to say just that." I hug her tightly and rest my head on her shoulder. She makes circles on my back. That's when it hits me. My mom's birthday is tomorrow. How could I have forgotten? I look up at Olivia.

       "Oh, my, god, I forgot. Livy, I forgot my own mom's birthday." She nods. "I can't believe I forgot." I lay down.

    "I know you probably don't want me saying this but, Its going to be ok, don't worry. It wasn't your fault." That was all I heard before falling asleep.