This Boy Im With

Chapter32: 2 weeks

  BLAKE'S POV

    2 weeks.

    It's been 2 weeks since I got up from bed, since I seen Riley, since I heard from Riley, since I spoken to Riley, and since the break up. The first week of school I didn't see her at all and people said she hasn't shown up. The second week I thought there was no point in going to school. It's been hard living alone, not having anyone to talk to, and not having the person you love be hear by your side. Every night before I went to sleep, which was at five in the morning, I would listen to my heart beating against my chest. I would listen to the animals outside making all kinds of noises. I would lay there, looking out the window not daring to move. Not even when the room when dark. I know Riley also cheated, but I can't take it all out on her, I made a mistake to, a bigger one. It was my fault. I should have never let Molly take advantage of me . We both are here to take the blame because we both messed up, we both made a big mistake. Everyone makes mistakes, but the mistake I made was a bit to big.

    I don't know how I did it. How I lasted 2 whole damn weeks without knocking her door down and making her come back to me. When I looked in her eyes I would see the world and when I looked at the world, I would see her eyes everywhere. She was my air, my breathe, my soul, my heart, my love, my world, my everything. Sometimes I would smile to myself for no reason, but then I think again, realize that I was thinking about her, and that's why I was smiling like a child opening presents on Christmas morning. There was this one day when I thought and wished, 'why can't I just run away with you. So that there's only you and me . But  then I reminded myself that there is no you and me anymore, but there's you.... and.... me.' Falling in love with her was one of the things that I wanted and it came true. But there is something else that I want. And it's to stay in love with her forever and never ever let her go.

    She was my everything. And I hope that she knows that.

  RILEY'S POV

     2 weeks.

  It's been 2 weeks since I saw him, since I heard of him or from him, since I saw his hazel eyes, and since the break up. Blake eventually found out about the kissing incident at the club but I guess he didn't want to cause anymore problems 'cause he didn't come pounding on my door. Blake was like my star. He was the only star in my sky. The only sun in my sky and the only moon in my sky. He was the first thing I would think of when I wake up and the last when I fall asleep. I haven't had much sleep though. I fall asleep every night at five in the morning. I haven't gotten up from bed since I found out about what he did. I didn't bother going to school. I am proud that I feel in love with Blake, I am not ashamed of him or even embarrassed by him. He is who he is. I love him for that. His smile, his eyes, his scent,  his laugh, his voice, his warmth, his love, him himself,  is all I am missing right now. To love someone isn't just a strong feeling, it's a decision, a judgement, and a promise. Love is a unconditional commitment to an imperfect human being.

I feel like I loved him for a thousand years and even if haven't... I will.

    

  I can't really explain my love for him through words but I try as hard as I can. I don't need the whole world to love me, I just need him to love me. No matter how mad and disappointed I am with him I still care for him and love him. With him I can breath a lot better, even though sometimes when we fight I say I need space and time alone, I don't really need that.  I need him. That's all I need, because even though it is just one boy, I have a thousand feelings.

This chapter was so touching. I put alot of work into it. I hope you enjoyed it. xx