Trapped .

many secrets have been kept from me throughout my life . im feeling trapped inside my self and i dont know why. Maybe people think i cant handle some of the truth , when really i can . what they dont think i know , i do know . like the fact that im adopted , or the fact that im a year older than what my birth certificate says , or even the fact that my biological mother is a drug addict and ive seen her on the street everyday going to school and work. yeah , i know more than they think . only thing i dont know is who my real father is , but i plan to actually face my mom and ask and talk to her about it .

"April , sweetie come downstairs for breakfast . "

i walked downstairs , fully dressed and met Miranda downstairs.

"morning baby , i put your food on the stove . "

" k , thanks , but i gotta go im kind of late "

" okay well have a good day baby ,"

i walked and started looking for her . well my mom , and there she was in the same place as always . i walked up to her as calm as i can be.

" Susan " i said stepping up to her she just stared at me .

"mommy , its me April." i was holding back tears . please , remember me . im begging you .

"april? , omg baby " she jumped and held me tight . we sat and cried , i could tell she loved and missed me .

"APRIL ,, breakfast time baby ,

what ?  this is the part i realized it was all a stupid dream , of course it wasnt real , why would it be ? ugh i hate life , times like this i wish i was with Jayden he always calmed me down . god do i miss him .

" okay  , im coming , i picked Kaycee up out her crib got her dressed brushed her hair back and did the same with myself . i walked downstairs with Kaycee on my side and sat her in her high chair. she started crying .

" whats wrong Cee ? , hungry baby?" i said with my awkward baby voice   

"nana" she responded ,

Nana was her favorite teddy bear her dad gave her before he went to the army , he'll be back in a week and i cant wait to see him . i missed my baby . i handed Kaycee her nana and she was silent.

"Miranda , i think its time that i move out , when Jayden gets back i dont want him to be uncomf-"

"No , you cant . "

"what you mean i cant"

"you're not ready babygirl , not on your own"

" i should be the one to make that decision"

"no , okay April , end of discussion , just yesterday you were saying u didnt want to move out , now all of a sudden you do , i didnt raise you to be a mind changer and a liar"

"actually you didnt raise me at all less we forget , you're a fake ,

"April , how dare you say tha-"

" so "mom" , wheres Susan ? huh ? i said stepping up to her , so dont come to me about some craziness like lying because last i checked you arent my real mom to begin with . " , i think ill be packing my stuff now i said grabbing my baby , her nana , and my purse and going upstairs to pack my stuff, i called the real estate man and let him know i would take his offer and i could meet him down there in about 10 minutes . we didnt have much stuff so i was packed in no time , i got all our stuff and put it in the car , i put Kaycee in her car seat and left the house key with Miranda, got in my car and just like that i was gone. This is the beginning of a new life for us , and Jay when he comes home .