useless(markyong/taemark)

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Taeyong POV

I walked away from him. Not even minding if he say thanks or nah. It happen everyday and no matter what I do,people will still hate me. Assault me everyday. Punch me when they are in bad mood. Kicking me when they want to. It's hurt. I wouldn't deny. People who is around will only look at me,leaving me afterward. Never wonder if I survive or not. Well, I'm nothing. Only a useless guy who wanders around till he finally meet his death. I'm done committing suicide.

Yes, I already almost commited a suicide before. Sorry I mean a lot. I already did it a lot.

I tear up my wrist with knife, I ate a lot of medicines and overdosed. But only to be awake at a hospital. Maybe god really spare me a lot of life. Maybe god want me to stay alive. But I can't see any reason to keep me alive. Maybe, god wanna play with me until I give up commited suicide and just wait for my death. Well,that's make sense...

I laughed sarcastically to myself. Wow, Lee TaeYong what a stupid person you are. Anyway enjoy your life Taeyongie...

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Finally I arrived at my class. Again sadness started to wandering around me.

Why? Why it must be me? To be the one who suffered from all of this shitty life. I never made a choice to stay alive and I know I won't. Why? Why god? Please answer me. I'm tired of praying... It just a simple wish. Let me die and you don't even have to take care of me anymore.

On that time, a tears flow down on my cheek. I rubbed it, frustrated with my life. God is not helping me at all. I only suffer more.

After making a decision to walk in or left, I finally made my way into the class. Once I entered, all eyes on me.

I started to feel like I would vomit any minute from now on. It's feel thousands of eyes looking at me now.

"Mind of telling why are you late? Mr. Lee..."

I looked at the whiteboard. A guy who is wearing a pair of round spectacle is looking at me calmly.

"I'm sorry Mr. Do. I trapped in a traffic jam." I lied. If i told the truth the new boy will be the next target of the bullies.

"Well, Mr. Lee you can proceed to your seat. And please never late again after this, understand?". He said to me and smiled.

It's like the best think in my life. Never any other teacher being this kind to me except him. I bowed to him and walked to my seat. Once I reach mh seat, again so many new curse words telling me how much they wanted me to die. Well, it's not like a never used to read. I already read this since I was only 10. Well, that's was the first time I felt I should just engrave myself or at least, left that place. I sat and I continue to look at the window right next to me. I never study, still I never thought this place would want me. Maybe on that time the principal was having fever so he accidentally thought I'm a good grade student. But I don't know why I'm kinda missing the angelic looking boy. Teah, I know it was what we called first love. But I know the feeling won't be return. I already know my fate and I will just follow what god had setting up for me. I'm kinda sad thinking of it.

Suddenly, the door flew open revealing a boy, AKA Mark Lee. He was panting hard like he just ran across the country.

He is cute.

But again, the feeling of somersault in my stomach return. God, I wish he knows what effect he had on me.

" I'm sorry for coming late." He saud and bowed to show he apologized.

He talked a bit with the teacger and suddenly Mr. Do spoke, telling the class that we will a new classmate and Mark was asked to introduce himself to the class.

"Hi, I am Mark Lee. I am from Canada. Please take care of me well." He received a big applause and I finally realize that I had been smiling since he came into the class.

Mark was asked to sit anywhere he will and he started to walk.

And shit happens.

He walked and sit next to me. I heard a loud of gasps from other students. Again,eyes are all on me...I mean us.

"Hey Tae sunbaenim." He said and smile and me warmly.  I just nodded. Not daring to look at him to long or else you know what will happen.

Well now, this is what I called trouble.

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Hey guys, its me. Do you like it. I'm sorry for my grammar. English is not my first language. I hope you enjoy this story so far. And I know some of you might be wondering what rumors that caused Taeyong to be treated like this. Well, I'm not giving any clue about it. Maybe you will know it at next upcoming chapter. Well I won't be updating for a wgile. Because of that I update a lot of chapter. I will comeback after 2 june. I promise. Just wait for me okay👌.

And thank you for the votes and comments. I'm totally appreciate it. It give me a lot if motivation to continue writing and maybe writing story will my new hobby. Okay bye. I love you 😍.