useless(markyong/taemark)

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Taeyong POV

What is the use of having soul if you don't even have passion to stay alive?

Wandering like a lost soul but the difference is that I still have a perfect body...but there is no use.

my heart full of scars that never stop tearing its blood. The blood that flows won't stop until I die.

And I wish one day that it will stop. Or the best way to say it...I wish I will die.

Now,I'm standing here like an idiot. My steps somehow already started to becoming heavy with full of regrets and sadness.

The corridor that used to fill a lot of people is now becoming silent and empty. Just like my feelings.

All of them have a lot of thing they want to achieve,but for me...

I think you already know what I mean.

Out of the blue, a guy with a brown hair approach me.

This guy, he looks like a new freshman. I think he is a new,cause the way he looked at me doesn't show any disgusted... He looks at me with the stare that I can't tell.

Adoration? Hell no, get that out of your thought Taeyong. You are useless. You are ugly, you are stupid, you are no use, you deserve to die alone.

"Excuse me sunbaenim..."

His voice. Its kinda show nervousness but slight of excitement.

"Can you show me the way to the office. I'm kinda lost." He smiled.

I couldn't lie. My heart which full of emptiness started to feel warm. It feels like I was melt but without any pain. His smile,it's like the most pure thing in the world.

I realized that I just let him hanging and he kinda look shy... But his eyes is full of concerns and hopes.

"Yeah sure..."

I didn't mean to be rude,but it had been a long time since I talked to people... I never get used to that feeling. It just keep making my blood flows more.

But this guy make my perspective change a bit about that thought.

Better stay away from him Taeyong. You didn't want to hurt him. You will only hurt him more and he should be happy to be in here. Just don...

"Err..sunbaenim...by any chance,may I know your name?". He suddenly spoke make me came back to my realization.

" Taeyong...lee taeyong." I said. Still he look at me with the same expression.