suicidal deku

chapter 4

^, not mine.

A/N sorry for that long wait I actually caught a cold, I was so out of it, lol, had to take so much medicine. 2 hay fever pills, 2 pain meds, 2 vitamin C tablets, 2 magnesium tablets, and some cold medicine. any here is Chapter 4.

IMPORTANT QUESTIONS AT THE END PLEASE READ.

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And in that instant, I felt Kachans warm lips on mine.

Kachans P.O.V

Deku told me everything and by everything I mean everything the shitnerd even told me he loved me. 'wow he loves me, I love him too but I don't know how to tell him. shit and after everything he told me so I can't just leave him. I have to tell him.'

'COME ON YOU PUSSY TELL HIM.'

I thought all this then I had an idea.

before I could put my idea into action my eyes started to tear up. "great now I'm crying, you know what, fuck it, let me cry so that damn shitnerd can see my true feelings, its better than fucking telling him"

I leaned in, closed my eyes and forced my lips on his

'wow his lips are so soft and they taste like strawberries'

I slowly open my eyes to see Deku a blushing mess. wow, I just did that, I just kissed that useless nerd, wait why does he look like he going to cry, oh shit did I make him cry, what am I talking about of course I made him cry I just kissed him without permission'.

Dekus P.O.V

there was an instant of silence, I could see tears in his eyes. then out of the blue, Kachan kissed me.

"..."

"wait am I enjoying this?!?, I mean I have always loved him but I never imagined that he would actually kiss me."

there was a feeling of security, he made me feel safe, I never wanted this feeling to end.

he brakes the kiss and he slowly opens his eyes "oh crap I must be blushing so much right now, wait what if he kissed me because he loves me back, no this is Kachan we are talking about if anything he kissed me just to upset me and toy with my feelings."

my eyes start to water, not want to have my feelings for Kachan toyed with like their some kind of rag doll. Kachans eyes open wider in shock.

"Why, why would you do that..*sob*.. why would you kiss me?"

"Deku I..."

I cut him off "you what, are you going to actually say you have feelings for me!!? yeah like that Kachan I know would actually admit to that, I anything you probably kissed me upset me more!! you know what Kachan. I HURT,  I hurt so much It feels like a piece of me has been ripped from my very being, I HURT, I truly loved you, I love how strong you are, I love how confident you are, I love your stupid red eyes and you stupid sandy blond hair that always stood in spikes, I loved how you were taller than me, I loved the sense of security I got when around you, I-I-I love you.." I was now a full-on bawling mess.

Kachans P.O.V

"shit I made him even sadder, but does he really feel all of those things towards me,  *sighing mentally* guess it's my turn"

I bring Deku into a hug he flinches slightly but doesn't try to get out of my grasp

"Deku I love you... I love your stupidly kind personality, I love how fragile you are, I love your stupid, messy, curly, green hair and you stupidly bright green eyes, I love how short you are, I love how I am stronger than you so I can protect you but It seems I have failed in that duty, the reason I was always such an ass to you was because I didn't want you to do anything that would result in you dying, because if I'm being honest I don't think I would be able to live without you."

"okay no going back said everything I can now we have to see Dekus reaction."

Third person P.O.V

dekus breathing seemed to slow and his tears dissipate, Deku slowly melted into the hug.

"I'm sorry Deku" - kachan

"I forgive you"- Deku

"this might be a bit sudden but....do you want to be my boyfriend, I mean so I can always be by your side and protect you"- Kachan

Izuku pulled away from the hug and looked Katsuki in the eyes, Izuku then closed his eyes, tilted his head slightly and smiled

"I would love to."

Time skip ~ 9 months till UA entrance exam, 1 month after the suicide attempt.

School has been running as usual, except the rumor that Deku tried to commit suicide since Deku got released from the hospital his fellow classmates and everyone in the school has been giving him looks of pity. If anyone tried anything with Izuku than Katsuki would interfere and stand up for Deku.

A/N: sorry I am really bad at endings. I have a question

1) Should I continue and give Izuku one for all and put him in the heroics course with Kachan and go from there?

or

2) just leave the story here and end it?