Freshman

Chapter 31: The Suicidal

She has been absent for more than two days and I couldn't help but ask why. A woman of perfect attendance, seldom that ever catches a cold, and never leaves without an explanation is absent for how many days. What was up?

Soon enough, I found out that Maine's grandmother had an illness.

A deadly illness, to the point wherein it was near death.... Obviously, since it was a deadly illness. Deadly illness.

She told us that her grandmother didn't make it. Death took her faster than any other, and it wasn't a fine one- like she had described. Losing a loved one quicker than expectations is heart breaking.

She came back to school full of grief. Bereaved beyond belief to which I have never seen her as such.

As mush as I tried to, I could never really sympathize with her agony. I've never experienced a death of a loved one. Rendering me very lucky.

But nonetheles, actions that are needed to be made were to empathize, to understand, and to see through Maine's eyes. Fitting my feet and trying to feel what it's like in her shoes.

What happened after that? Maine was never the same. She had always sat alone and looked at the horizon, usually contemplating, staring far and beyond reality.

Losing someone hurts.

Despite that, Dame, CJ, Aganda, and many more were by her side to cheer her up, she was still under the process of picking up her scattered pieces.

I knew Aganda could relate so much. Her father died a year ago, and her sudden attitude change way back then in grade school wasn't any more different than Maine's.

A year ago, when Avandamet was getting over her grief and remorse from losing her father, Aganda distanced herself from other people. She was at the background of almost everything. It makes me feel depressed just seeing her like that. Isolating herself from everyone and everything who only wants to help. She changed and wasn't the same, just like what happened to Maine.

Didn't expect that now, did you? The ambassador of the class, most confident, beautiful, and responsible- yet she's suicidal.

Although, Aganda wasn't the kind like Maine who'd have emotional breakdowns in front of the whole class. Nope.

She was stern.

She's strong enough to mask her feelings, but I guess not strong enough to avoid suicidal thoughts.

A week or so had passed after the death of Maine's grand mother, and everything had returned back to normal, filled with peace and serenity if I do say so myself.

Not until I heard devastating news. It wasn't a shock. No.

All this happened before. Before high school. It's just difficult to experience this again.

The said gossip had already travelled that Aganda had plans on killing herself.

Oh God.... This again?

She tried to do it back in sixth grade. It was a little disappointing now, seeing her going through this phase again.

A suicidal phase.