Save my soul [Imagine Dragons Fanfic]

Life choices

Dan:

Although their "attack" happened yesterday I can't get it out of my head. I was thinking about trusting them. I was thinking about talking with them, not about my dad, but normal stuff. Hell, I was thinking about being friends with someone. And all of the sudden, it's over. They attacked me and took my notebook, I'll never ever talk to them again. This time it was them destroying everything, not me. I'm a little bit sad, because I thought that I finally found someone who doesn't judge me immediatly. But I guess I was wrong. Again.

No matter what I'm doing, I can't get them out of my head. Part of me wants to cry, the rest wants to scream. The fact that it's friday doesn't make it better. I only got 40 dollars by now, which means that ten are missing. But I'm not able to steal today. I need a plan!

Suddenly a shadow falls on me. I'm usually the first in class, the next ones are mostly Ben, Wayne and Platz. Even though I don't want to I look up. Wayne is standing in front of me, Platz and Ben aren't here yet. "Can I please talk to you for a second?" he asks. I don't want to talk to him but since we are alone in the class it will be hard to avoid him. So I lean back and cross my arms.

"I just wanted to apologize for what happened yesterday. I know that it was wrong but you didn't tell us a damn thing about yourself. We just wanted to know more about you. I know that it won't make anything better, but I am really, really sorry. Maybe we can meet and talk about everything." I think about his words for a second when suddenly I have an idea.

I look up to him again. "Okay. If you want to talk. Lets meet after the school. But I just want to talk to you, not to Ben or Platz. I guess those were the ones coming up with the plan.." He seems relieved and nods. "Thank you." he says and sits down at his table. I feel bad, after school, if I do what I'm thinking about my chance on having friends will be zero. I will have to silence him. Luckily I have my pocketknife with me. You nevere know when you need it. Yesterday I wasn't fast enough. But today I'm prepared. In my guts is just this small feeling of regret, even though I haven't even done it. But they attacked me yesterday. I don't owe them nothing!

After the school I wait in front of the building. Wayne gets out next to Platz. Ben is walking with some other students. As Platz sees me, he pats Waynes shoulder and heads somewhere else. As soon as Wayne reaches me I turn around and start walking. "I don't want to talk here. Too many people, I hope you understand that." Wayne nods but he seems a little scared I guess.

We walk a few blocks and enter a small sidestreet. "Where are we going?" Wayne asks and I can hear his voice shaking a bit. I don't answer him but keep walking. He hesitates but follows me. Once we are in the middle of the street and sure that no one is able to see us I turn around. My hands collide with Waynes chest and I push him against the wall. He didn't expect me to do so and whimpers a bit. I leave one hand against his chest, with the other one I pull out the knife but I keep it hidden at first.

"I have enough of you guys thinking that you can have everything you want. I have enough of being the victim. Lets turn the tables. Don't you ever talk to me again. Mind your own lifes. My life isn't any of you business. Got that?" He nods quickly and I can see the fear in his eyes. "Good. And now give me your money." "W-what?" I press the knife against the side of his neck which makes him flinch. "Give me your money. You destroyed my notebook yesterday. See it as redemption.

With shaking hands he takes his wallet out of his pocket an hands it to me. He has thirty dllars in it. I take ten and give it back. " And you won't tell anyone will you? Don't forget that I know where you live. I know the people you love. You better not mess with me!" Then I turn around and run away.

Once I am around the corner I lean against the wall and let out a shaky breath. I don't even know who was more scared, Wayne or me. I just commited a crime. All because of my father. I just robbed someone. I feel like father controlls my actions even when he isn't even here. Now I speed up a little because I don't want to get home too late and I already am. At least I got the money.

Just as I am about to turn around the last corner I hear someone yelling behind me. I stop and turn around. At first I can't believe my eyes. Platz and Wayne are standing a few meters away from me. They get closer and I don't move waiting for them to reach me. "I saw what you just did." Platz states. Well that's shitty. Why can't I have luck only once? "And? What do you want to do?" I ask and I'm surprised how calm my voice sounds. "You better give him his money back! Now!" he is getting really angry. Wayne looks like he is still in shock. I laugh even though I feel like crying. "Or what?"

Platz voice gets more gentle. "Look, I don't know what's going on in your life. But stealing is wrong. We can talk it out. I know that we made a mistake yesterday but you don't have to mug Wayne because of that." Something about his words made me angry. "Do you think that I steal because it's funny? No. You don't know what's going on in my life. You don't know why I have to steal. You have such amazing lifes and familys, everything you want. I wouldn't steal if I didn't have to. You don't know how shitty my life is!" As soon as I finished I hear someone clear his throat. I don't have to turn around to know who is standing behind me...