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The questions

There is something I'm curious about now. How do you love a broken person? How do you show him/her that they mean alot to you? Why do you love them if they are mean to you? Why do you keep trying with them? Why don't you just give up? This are questions I ask myself all the time. Read this below and tell me why don't I give up?

I never believe in love until I met him. I'm not saying his name. No he's not the best person on Earth nor a good person at all. He's mean, cruel, and cold-hearted. When I first met him, he hated me from the moment his eyes looked in mine. I was dating his best friend and I don't think he liked it. He hated me. I didn't know why. Anytime I seen him, he would pick on me or start a fight with me but sadly I enjoyed him being around. Sometimes he made me cry without realizing it but I still enjoyed him around.  He was anyways mean to me and I was mean to him too. He had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend. My boyfriend and I didn't date long. After we broke up, he was still mean to me. I guess my boyfriend wasn't the problem. He just hates my guts. It hurts alot. I mean alot.

One day the guy and his girlfriend broke up. He was heartbroken and sad. I felt bad for him. I hated seeing him so sad. I decided to go talk to him about it. Like a jerk he snapped at me. He didn't want me to see his feelings. I kept trying with him. He would push me away but I didn't give up on him. He deserved to be happy. I wanted to see him happy. Even if I wasn't. I don't know what it was about him but there was something about this guy I liked. No sadly I loved about him. The reason I loved him was because almost 2 years ago, I lost my dad to liver failure. It hurt me and my mom. I'm not going to lie but I had to be strong for her. I hid my emotions well but he saw through my fake emotions. He seen how I really felt inside. He would wrap me up in his arms and talk to me. When I ask him why he's doing this he said to help a friend out. See that side made me fall for him more.

Time went on and I decided to move on. I was with a really sweet and loving guy but Everytime I seen the guy I fell for I would wish he cared about me or I wanted to be with him. I'm crazy. Why did I want to mess up a great relationship? I don't know.

Then there was that special day, I'll never forget. The guy I fell in love with tried to die. I felt my heart sink. I had to see him. I had to help him. I'm not going to lie the minute I saw his face after I was crying. Angry crying. He ask me what was wrong but I turned it around on him. He was the one in the hospital not me. I don't know what came over me but I hugged him. I made him problem not to scare me like that again. From that moment about a year ago, we became closer and closer. I learned about his past and why he's the way he is. I was right about him. He was just scared to let someone in. He didn't want to be hurt. I never gave up on him. Guess what? Now he's my partner. We're not dating. We're just partners. We had an agreement that we suppose each from now on and to be together without the stress of dating. We still have problems and fight sometimes. I will say that never giving up on him was painful but sadly worth it now because he's actually a really sweet and caring guy once you break his shell and see the real him. My answer is I never gave up on him because even though he's was a jerk. I understand he's broken and I want to fix him. He never gave up on me either. He make be a rude jerk but he is a loyal friend. He's the type of guy that can hurt you and make you smile at the same time. I love him. Even if we're not together.